rika's new year's resolutions!
listening to: Morning Musume - Love Machine
wishes for: I wanna talk to her again, mya. :3
mood:

1. I will move to a better school.
2. I will have more yaoi.
3. I will take care of Jimmy and upgrade him.
4. I will take care of Mittens, P-chan and Soujiro-neko. (P-chan is the remaining second generation cat, Soujiro the last of the third generation... Mittens is the newest.. the sixth gen, i think.)
5. I will get rid of the bags under my eyes by sleeping early. *gasp*

Well, that's the first five of it. ^^;

akemashite omedetou gozaimasu! happy new year!

love you minna! ^^ See you next year! :D

Toodles~ <3

Happy Holidays!
listening to: Naruto OST
wishes for: NO MORE BAGS DEMMET!
mood:

Merry Christmas minna! ^^

Haha.. It's Christmas and I'm listening to the Naruto OST. x3 This is fun. We haven't even eaten Noche Buena yet. Oh, wait. Correction. We're eating now.

*rushes off*

*rushes back*

Okay. Dinner. Eat. Uh.. Yeah. Happy Christmas! :D *hugs and kisses to everyone*

Chihaya!
listening to: Maki Ichihara - True Romance
wishes for: EARTHIAN!! >w<
mood:

Omigosh! I just finished watching Earthian, and it's just so LOVELY!! (Not to mention includes two angels smexing each other silly..) Chihaya is my uke! >w< Kagetsuki looks better with his hair short. He looks butt ugly when his hair's longer. And i wonder what happened to Chihaya's wing... oops. spoiler. Hee! >w<

Anyway, with that over and done with.. My net hours are "limited". Yeah right. As if they can keep me and Jimmy separate. Heh. >3 No one can take me away from Jimmy! NO ONE!! *evil cackle*

Can I rant a little bit more about Earthian?

Of course! This is my blog!

Earthian is so gosh darned beautiful. Kouga Yun should be named the Ruler of all Shounen Ai. I can't wait for Loveless to come out. Hope it doesn't get licensed immediately. I want them fansubs. But first, I have to clear up my disc drive. my 40gig is running out fast. Or maybe i should buy another HD.. with bigger capacity.. mmm.. that's right. Get a 200++Gig HD so i can rule the world. Okay, so I cant rule the worl;d with a 200++Gig HD, but hey. I try. *wink*

My Christmas piccie will be up hopefully before christmas!! >w<

Until then! Ja mata ne! Toodles~ <3

what a week.. @_@
listening to: Iwao Junko - Yoru no Uta (Christmas)
wishes for: lots of presents!! and no grade below 1.0 TT^TT
mood:

From Khan's blog who got it from Benji's blog

Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
let anyone else in, the spotlight terrifies
you. You are truly a mystery.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Monday
Nothing much happened. Took an exam, went home, blah. Uneventful, really.

Tuesday
No exams. Watched dad's play in the evening. It rawked. Was really fun. Mom ruined it though. She kept laughing everytime June was on stage. @__@ I don't blame her though. Leann was kinda.. er... funny.. on stage.. I mean.. the death scene! omg, the death scene!! xD

Wednesday
Defense day! And then i didn't know that objectp was having an exam today!! I didn't even study!! O__O!! But.. it's okay. At least i answered most of the items.. ^^; And then, went to UST to pick Creole up so we can watch June at Johnny together. Creole, Asia and Kael got in free!! Yay! :D We watched the 'last full show', aka the Gala performance. I saw lots of scenes with extras in it. xD It was fuuun. Can't wait to transfer and join Teatro xD Creole says she really really wants to join Teatro now :D Yay! And then, I got to eat two cups of Ice Monster (A new way of eating RICE -caloy)! And then.. we were at the cast party. WHoa.. drank lots of zombiess... i didn't know how many glasses i drank.. al i know is, i ended up getting a headache. o__o dad and i got home at around 3.30 in the morning. O__O major headache. Slept for four hours.

Thursday
Woke up at the same time Jem arrived at the house O_O! I quickly ran to the bathroom, took a bath, dressed up, ate breakfast, got money and we skidaddled to Megamall to meet up with a friend *wink* Went through lots of places until we got to Greenhills, bought what i had to buy, went all the way back to Megamall, went to North Edsa to play a bit of Parapara, went to Jem's house, watched Infinite Ryvius (MUST WATCH!!!!!! >w<) ate dinner, read a bit of Rizal, went home, read a bit more Rizal, went to sleep.

Friday
Uhh.. Took an exam, waited for papa at Powerbooks at Greenbelt, went home, went online for the first time in the whole week, worried about my grades, went to bed.

Today
Going to Glorietta to shop for presents and clothes. And I have to go to Megamall to pick up my comish from CK. ^^ Gaara-sama~ <3

Toodles~ <3

It's not my fault! I swear!
listening to: Crystal Kay - Motherland
wishes for: world peas
mood:


Your Seigaku Match is... Kikumaru Eiji! The plaster
boy of Seigaku! (Ok, acrobatic boy...). He's so
hyper that you'll never be bored on your
dates~! Did i mention that he's SOO cute too?!
XD Demo..you must learn to love his childish
nature~ or else you might find yourself getting
irritated by his somewhat insensitive nature...


Who Is Your Tenipuri Match? ~Seigaku~
brought to you by Quizilla


Your whole life someone has always been cheering
you on. Tennis is cool, and you are actually
pretty nifty (if not downright quirky) Win with
pride, or lose with honor it doesn't matter
because tennis is life and life is sweet. (Just
don't drink the juice...)


Which Prince of Tennis team do you belong on?
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If a kid asks where rain comes from, I think a cute thing to tell him is "God is crying." And if he asks why God is crying, another cute thing to tell him is "Probably because of something you did." - Jack Handy

Well, I wanted something positive.

je vous déteste tout
listening to: Plastic Tree - aoi tori
wishes for: la mort à tous
mood:

I have decided not to study at De La Salle University anymore. I have been lying to m yself for the past years that I like the place. No, in reality, I don't. The place is awful. The administration is an evil, money-leeching corporation that turns education into hell. The bastards. Besides, even if I do leave DLSU, it's not like anyone will miss me and vice versa. I don't care. Not one bit. Nope.

I decided I shall take up Behavioral Sciences at UST. Jem and I are still debating which school to go to. My number one choice would be UST, but since it is hard to transfer there, we've listed other schools. Among them are UP, Miriam and St. Scholastica's. We're still considering other schools like APC, Ateneo and shit. >.> We're having a hard time choosing, but we'll find one. It's our choice and we're sticking to it. They say it's hard to transfer to UST, but mom and dad says they'll help me get in. Hopefully, they'll help Jem as well. :) As for the other colleges we're planning to go in that doesn't have Behavioral Sciences, i'm taking any psychology or literature/journalism or advertising course. Yessir. No more programming for Rika. Nope. No more. Besides, studying at a semestral environment will give me more time to actually study.

For that to happen, I think I'll take up my grandma's suggestion of taking a Leave of Absence next term to sort everything out. I'll also be getting a part time job somewhere [thinking Bizu at Greenbelt as a waitress x3 cakes!!] Jem and I will be using that time to hunt for schools and get our applications ready. Hyep, Jem and I are all set to transfer schools as soon as possible.

Speaking of transferring, Val is going to transfer, too. Oh, and Michi? Don't be sad. It's not like I'm going to die. We'd still be in contact with each other, right? ^^ I'll introduce you to a friend of mine one of these days.. I'm sure you'd like each other. Hehe. ;)

So there you go. But I'm not finished ranting yet. Will do that later though. Stuff to do. Bah.

Pas de Deux
listening to: Ritsuko Okazaki - Morning Grace
wishes for: Princess Tutu!!! >w<
mood:

It shall be the title of my next masterpiece.. All I have to do now is look for the perfect coloring materials.. or else I'll be forced to color it with Photoshop. Thanks to Okazaki RItsuko-sama, I am inspired. I finally found a copy of the Op-Ed of Princess Tutu <3 Morning Grace is teh luff. ^^ Now, if you know what pas de deux means, you'll have an idea of what I drew. ^^ I just hope it comes out the way i plan it to.. *crosses fingers*

Anyway, today's the last day of the four-day vacation thing. I have read Rizal's The Philippines: A Century Hence and slept through it.. I also have downloaded bunches of stuff, including 23-26 of Kyou Kara Maou. I went to Kang's play last night, too.. And something happened last night.. x3 Not telling.

For lack of anything else to post, here's teh lyrics to Morning Grace

Morning Grace
Okazaki Ritsuko
Princess Tutu Op Theme

yonde iru koe saa me o samashite

nakigao nugutte
mabushii hikari kigi no tsuyu
umareru

dare mo shiranai himitsu no mizube de
odore inochi no pas de deux
kyou mo yume miteru

sore wa yasashiku hageshii nagare ne
doko made tsuzuku labyrinth
watashi wa yukou
nigirishimeru yume

yonde iru koe watashi ga hitsuyou?

kanashii no mayou no
tobidatsu tori yureteru hana
sasayaku

sayonara namida anata wa suteki yo
odore inochi no pas de deux
ashita o yume mite

watashi ga yuku wa sono te ni watasou
egao hitotsu de hora ne
konna ni atatakai

dare mo shiranai himitsu no mizube yo
odore inochi no pas de deux
asu o yume miteru

sore wa yasashiku hageshii nagare ne
shiawase sagasu labyrinth
watashi wa yuku no yo

--

ohmifeckingosh! someone just molested me at soulseek.. O__o! his/her name's 'wish_souhait' and he/she scares me. I already have a seme-sama, thank you very much.. =__=

owwie, my brain hurts..
listening to: that darned background music
wishes for: get past level eight.. >.>
mood:

DeathBall: not pr0n is a killer. >.< I got past level fifteen, but i can't get past sixteen!! And the site doesn't offer any more clues!! AAAAGH!!! >.< This sucks!!!! *shakes fist* the source code has muddled clues, too!!! >.< what am i doing wrong?!?! i hate this!!! AAAAAGH!!! >.< *wants artemis fowl's brains*

School still sucks.

I can't feel the "christmas spirit". Does it still exist? Did it ever exist in the first place? O__o Can i have a cookie?

Why do i not like pageviews? And why can't i find decent plaid skirts? And striped socks? Do butterflies like butter? What about donuts? Are donuts going to take over the world? Will lollipops enter politics? Why am I being silly?

...'cause i dun have anything to post, that's why. -___-;

churros con chocolate
listening to: Psycho le Cemu - Gekiai Merry-go-Round
wishes for: Artemis Fowl fanart. More books!!
mood:

Yesterday, after school, I was at PowerBooks at Greenbelt. I love that place. The best place to read books. Actually, any PowerBooks place is a really good place to hang out. ^^ I love that bookstore. Lotsa books to choose from~ Lots of really good books to read~~ <3

I finally bought book 2 and 3 of the Artemis Fowl series!!! YAY!!! *skips around* ^^ And today, I bought The SUpernaturals, another book by Eoin Colfer! He's a really good author! :3

And today, I got to eat lots of food~~~ Yay! x3 Yay for Rockwell and Powerplant. x3 Churros is fun. And then for dinner we ate out for dinner!

Anyways, not enough to say except that i wanna read the books i bought already. ^^ Later, nya~ <3

*cackles*
listening to: Plastic Tree - Monophobia
wishes for: SD13 Chris and Isao Nanjou!!!!!!!!!
mood:

Nyahahaha!! New layout in under five minutes!! *cackles* Thank you for copy and paste! xD And look!! PANTYSHOT!!!! xDD

I likes this new layout. ^^ Tish all black and purdee. Yay for Muffins!!! >w< I lurve them. Chocolate Chip Muffins and ChocoBanana Muffins are teh sex!!! Mmm!! Myehehe. I want more! x3 it's because CCS's IT department had a pre-Christmas bazaar and they were selling Little Miss Muffins!! MUFFINS!!!!! *cackles* Marc bought me two last friday. YAY!!! x3 THANKYOUUUU!!!

Downloaded lots of stuff today. Mostly Plastic Tree and Psycho le Cemu stuff. Happyyyyyyyy~~~ x3

TOHMA SEGUCHI IS GODD!! xD

ah, jeez, i really need my sanity back!! @__@

Anyway, on to more important stuff! Like IntroDB and ISTech2!!! *works ass off*

ps: grounded. no internet until further notice. in the meantime, stare at the pantyshot. it makes people happy. >3

clam+jam+fly
listening to: Mythical Channel 328
wishes for: sd13fcs!!! aaaaaaaagh!!! >.<

CLAMP's site has changed. Lots. They now have this personal webspace just for them. It's called CJF: clam jam fly, for reasons I have yet to find out.

Anyway, i shouldn't be online. I should be working on INTRODB and ISTECH2. Demmet. >.<

Oh, and also. CLAMP has Clover listed under continuing works. Meaning Clover isn't finished at Vol4 yet. Hmmm.. And I still want to know what Legal Drug is. I haven't found much sites about that, and that sucks major ass.

I need someone to translate CLAMP's site for me.. TT^TT

Anyway, preview of my Suikoden 2 fic can be found here. Go read.

Whooo...
listening to: Haibane Renmei - Blue Flow
wishes for: NARUTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..!!!!!!

Gaara-sama ish teh luff. So is Sasuke and Orochimaru and Naruto and Haku and Neji. All luffleees. <3 Mine!!!!!!!!!!! >3 Shikimaru was just hilarious. x3 I have to download Naruto.. Must know what happened between Gaara and Naruto.. Mm.

Last week was just horribly stressing. I luff the Naruto Marathon though.. I am bankrupt. I bought a family sized pizza last friday and I didn't even get to eat a single slice out of it. Bah. Now i want potato chips. And chocolate and candy. And more pizza. Damnit.

We have karekare for lunch today!! WHEEE!

And yesterday was Seme-sama's birthdayy!!! Oooh..!! Seme-sama luff!!!

I'll be finishing almost everything i need to finish today and tomorrow. I shall not be online in a few days 'cause i *reallyreallyreally* need to finish schoolwork.

I haven't blogged something really good in a long while, so here's some quizzes for you.


Which Historical Lunatic Are You?
From the fecund loins of Rum and Monkey.


Which Famous Homosexual Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

omifrickingosh. wtf?! o__O


Which Latter-Day Glendinningite are you?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

No, don't ask me why i took this quiz. just don't. Oh, look! A cloud!


Which Horrible Affliction are you?
A Rum and Monkey disease.

ph34r.

untitled
listening to: Gackt - Hoshi no Suna
wishes for: no more.. no more.. i wanna die... *sob*

i wanna die.

stressed out maybe. due to schoolwork.

nah. not just that. life, in general, hates me.

"..it was that point in my life that i realized that the world had no need for me." -haku <3

and so my crazy dream continues...

bah. i have lost the will to do anything anymore. -_________- someone kill me. please. poison, guns, blades, i don't care how. just kill me.

yaoi
listening to: Seiken Densetsu 3 - Angel's Fear
wishes for: yaoi.

From here again. Bold entries are what i luff.

yaoi is out there
yaoi is the world i believe
yaoi is fun
yaoi is too hentai
yaoi is a genre of shoujo
yaoi is the japanese word for slash or male
yaoi is a shortened version of "yama nashi ochi nashi imi nashi"
yaoi is a woman's genre of manga
yaoi is a japanese term describing a genre of manga
yaoi is what we enjoy
yaoi is under "hentai shoujo"
yaoi is a japanese acronym for "yamanashi
yaoi is an abbreviation of the japanese phrase yama
yaoi is just a fictional glorification /glamorization kind of thing
yaoi is then you probably should leave now
yaoi is a handy name for gratuitous dirty sex
yaoi is a male/male relationship
yaoi is a "gurl thang"
yaoi is found in fan publications called doujinshi
yaoi is everywhere
yaoi is a particular
yaoi is not in
yaoi is male on male fiction created by women for consumption by women
yaoi is about the strong connection that forms between two people on an emotional level
yaoi is boy/boy or male/male sexual relations
yaoi is still mainly used for anime and videogame references
yaoi is something of a bastardized term taken from japanese that refers to a sexual relationship between two men
yaoi is used to refer to porn
yaoi is a form of anime/manga
yaoi is hentai is yaoi"
yaoi is homoerotica
yaoi is hosted on keenspace
yaoi is male+male relationships
yaoi is more focused on men
yaoi is often used to refer to both shounen
yaoi is the japanese term for a story involving two men being intimate
yaoi is a japanese term normally used to refer to a homosexual relationship in any specific fandom
yaoi is gay fiction for gays
yaoi is fiction
yaoi is a japanese term for male/male relationships?
yaoi is the following abbreviation
yaoi is good
yaoi is simply offering an alternative view of possible relationships
yaoi is fine with me
yaoi is properly an acronym
yaoi is mild but the story and the characters are unbelievable
yaoi is generated by talented fans
yaoi is to end with immense
yaoi is the acronym for 'yama nashi
yaoi is or is offended by the idea
yaoi is an abbreviation for "yamanashi
yaoi is male x male relationship
yaoi is x rated male/male fiction
yaoi is then
yaoi is pornographic; well
yaoi is great
yaoi is connected to the following things
yaoi is generally a term used in reference only to works of anime and manga
yaoi is wrong
yaoi is seen in kabuki theater as prostitution and videos of women posing as men for men in "shinjuku
yaoi is
yaoi is based on existing male characters put into a different context
yaoi is in you
yaoi is a japanese abbreviation which is used to signify homoerotic relationships
yaoi is a member of the following guilds and organizations
yaoi is a term used to refer to male/male or homosexual relationships of an intimate and/or sexually explicit nature
yaoi is another aspect of the romantic
yaoi is not an acronym from "yamete! oshiri itai!"
yaoi is a sexual act between two men
yaoi is the actual japanese term for fan comics
yaoi is known by
yaoi is secret in namco ^_^
yaoi is guy/guy romance and yuri is female/female romance
yaoi is an acronym for "yama nashi
yaoi is the term used for male/male
yaoi is in gw?
yaoi is to shounen ai as the erotic story is to the romance novel
yaoi is that you should avoid it

Because I am bored and I'm finishing up my genpsyc project thing.

I wanna sleep. =_______________=

red week strikes
listening to: Morning Musume - The Peace!
wishes for: no more work school

Warning: Before you read the following, one must at least understand the Filipino language.

tangina. grabe, iba na pala ngayon ang committe/group work. may volunteers nga, wala naman ni isa dun sa mga nagvolunteer ang gumawa. tangina talaga. mga putang ina. leche, walang kwenta. nagvolunteer pa diba? sana kasi naki-cooperate man lang. maayos naman ang pakiusap diba? sabi ko, sabi ni _____________ na sana pakiprint lang naman. ipiprint lang. okei naman kahit black and white. wala namang angal. alam naman ng lahat na may printer kayo. o kahit walang printer, meron naman dyang pc rental na may printer diba? common sense lang naman kasing dun nalang. nakiusap naman kami diba? tapos, sinabihan na din naman namin kayong maayos na sana magsubmit ng ideas para sa poster. may nagsumite ba? wala. pati ideas sa logo wala. grabe. kawawa si ________________. napabalik pa tuloy ako sa school kanina nang di oras. leche kasi eh. nasa sariling mundo, sarili ang iniintindi. tangina, wala na ba kayong pakialam sa mga kaibigan kaklase nyo? putangina. oo alam naming kelangan nyo ding magaral, pero sus naman o. sandali lang naman magpaprint diba? tangina, magpapasama lang naman, tinatamad pa. pucha talaga. sana malasin kayo buong buhay nyo. mga lecheng bwiset sa buhay.

two words. Fuck you.

� � 宮無� �科 ��。よ����願����。
listening to: Suikoden II OST Disc 3 - Freedom Again
wishes for: Princess Tutu OST

...if you don't understand that, do this: go to View > Encoding > Unicode (UTF-8) and then you can see it clearly mya. ^^

if you still can't understand, it's okay. it's supposed to say 'Watashi wa Miyamuri Rika desu. Yoroshiku onegaishimasu.' in kanji. Oh Nuffink. I was just playing around with the japIME.. which apparenly won't work in shift-jis, euc or auto. Oh well. ^^;

Anyway, got sick during the weekend. TT^TT Missed Genpsyc. I was absent for three days... and no one missed me.. *sobs* Well, there *was* a few... and their numbers only reach one hand.. Poor, poor me.. *sobs*

Today, Ellen pinched me on the cheeks. O__o just for wearing my special dress. OwO And everyone stared at me and loved meh. And my special dress. Which I designed. ^^ Teehee!

Mitch!! I'll send you the pictures once Ross sends them to me!! I promise!! :D I love you!! :D We should do that again some time.. I'll make more clotehs!!!!!! *squeals*

Today, i also learned that my memory suxxors. And I rule Guilty Gear when I play Ky Kiske. *evil laugh* Testament is smexy. *tackels him* mine, thank you.

Creole and I are being download whores. Soulseek, bittorrent and normal downloads for me... Heee.. Loving the downloads.. :3 Losing the disk space.. O___O Oh well. ^^;;;

Monday I'm getting a bunch of cd's frome Hades... Lots of Momosu PVs.. including W!!! Whee!!! :D Immagonnaget Kang a copy, nya! :D She'll love it!

Aaahh.. the Gravitation fandom is getting back.. *w* Yuki and Shuichi smexing.. can't wait!! *squeee* *melts*

My Saturday mornings are meant to be slept
listening to: Keyboard tappin' and people chattin' at g302
wishes for: sleep, demmet

I'm awake. I was woken up at 6.30 effin am just to attend a lecture/seminar for my Database class. >.< I want to sleep, demmet. And to top it all off, I didn't get breakfast at McDonald's!!! Agh!! >.
I need sleep. I have cookies in my bag. I have a lot of stuff to do today. I have to finish the scripts, I have to make another CCS Amazing Race logo , some CAR posters, the SCRIPTS!!! The scripts for the faculty variety show!! AAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!! *sobs*

Ooh, cool. We're doing some interesting webstuff.. I have to learn Java.. Mmm.. Fun. I want chocoichigo.net to be mine soon.. >3 And then I shall spread TripleH chocolate bars.. >D And Strawberry pocky!! Muhahahaha!!! Okay, so that didn't have anything to do with what we're doing..

We're actually making online databases, and our Prof is teaching us how to do them with Java and JavaScript... Take note that there IS a difference between the two. It's really cool. I just hope I can catch up.. Hehe. I need the knowledge of making online databases for chocoichigo.net I love that domain name.. chocoichigo nya~~ x3

I'm still sleepy. And I still want breakfast at McDonald's, but i don't think I can get one since the lecture/seminar ends at 12. >.< Damn my luck. And the lab's getting really really cold.. Add to that fact that I got the sniffles, and the shower didn't have any hot water.. *schniffle* I dun wanna be sick.. *schnifflecough* @___@ Too late.. @___@ Now how am I gonnado all that work that needs to be finiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiished??? *schnifflesobcough* @__X

I really want to go to sleep... -_______-;;;

PS: You found me! Omigosh! How long did it take? *cackles*

Froot Loops. It's like molesting Aki.. Only, Hideki's doing the molesting. Yum <3
listening to: those guys playing guilty gear on someone's laptop.
wishes for: them to get the fuck out of OUR territory *deathglares*

I am obsessed over Froot Loops. Don't ask why. I just am. I kept eating Froot Loops yesterday. O__o

Watched Bourne Supremacy with Khan last Friday. It was fun. Not as fun as the first, but still, it was fun. We met Arce at Powerbooks after the movie. I forgot to remind her about my sister's shirt. >.> Oh well.

Last Saturday, I got my dress made. Conflict over the cloths to use, though. I hope they choose the right ones. I haven't checked back on them yet. O__o I really hope they got the right cloths. I'm going to use that dress on the 29th 'cause me and Mitch and another friend of hers are gonna go Halloween Trippin' in Gox. Fashion Show!! Whee! I'm gonna get to wear make up.. *shudder* I'm not good at applying it, so I might ask Mitch or someone else to put it on me.. Mmmm.. About my hair.. it's eiher i put it in braids or wear a headband.. The usual ponytail wont work in this case. The dress is too pretty for my hair to be worn in a ponytail.

Oooh, i was also at Intramuros last Saturday! I didn't really wantto go, but I went.. And i bought really pretty earrings there!! So I'm glad I went ^^

Also! About last saturday! It was the longest time I've been online!! 13 hours 59 minutes and 58 seconds!! xD 14 straight hours just downloading episoded 1-26 of Daa! Daa! Daa! xD And now, I've watched up to episode 8 since I watch it afer doing homework and shit.. Hehe. I wanna go home early today so i can watch 9 onwards.

Last sunday was boring as usual.

Monday! Monday I got to play ParaPara Paradise with Ross! I can dance Speedway in Freestyle Hard Mode!! Yay!!! Ohh! i saw sir Geom in SM Manila~! When I was playing ParaPara Paradise, too!! O___O!!!! Whooaaa... Also.. anywhere you go.. CD-R King is ALWAYS slow. >.<

Hehe. Hmmmm.. Today, I was supposed to be going to Creole's place just to hang out.. but it turns out that she cancelled it.. >.> Boooo..

Tomorrow, I have to fix the Courseware proposal Danes and I have to pass.. @__@ We have to give it by Tuesday.. Hopefully we'd have a fine tooth comb run through it by tomorrow or Friday. You think STC would want to test the software? O__o

Oniichan made a Smiler League TCG and we're playing a test game in YM.. It's really confusing, but he says I've got the hang of it already. Or something to that effect.. It's confuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuusing!!!!!!!!!! @___@ Maybe that's why I don't play much TCGs... >.>

I'm at Gox. And I have to do one last homework I forgot to do yesterday.. I have to put in me notebook this dream I had.. Our prof is actually getting more and more fun these days.. Hehehe..

Anyway, I've ranted long enough.. I'm gonna get those arses out of our territory right now.. They're too effin' noisy. Damn bastards. *glare*

Toodles~!

your silence...
listening to: Shimokawa Mikuni - Alone
wishes for: something that would tell me that you still think about me.

...makes me realize how much i really do care for you. It's been two months since we last spoke to each other. Exactly two months today. Maybe it *was* a passing crush. Maybe. But I still do think of you. I still do feel something for you. I still care for you. I do. Maybe it wasn't as big of a deal than it was before, but i still do. I do care about you. I really do. And I still think about you. Everyday. Not one day passes that I don't think of you. I miss you. I really do. You know, I've always believed that you *would* be able to take me away from here and let me stay with you. There were times that I doubted that, but I still kept hoping. Amd I once believed that you would be able to keep me with you. But I guess you're right. About being two people living on either sides of the world. And maybe that's why we can't exactly be. I love you. Or I did. Maybe I still do. And maybe it would never happen. But I can't stop dreaming, right?

...I wish I'd be able to talk with you again. Even for just a minute, just to say 'Hi', just to ask you how you're doing.

I miss you.

Oooooh....
still watching Moonchild
wishes for: still Hideki x Aki numminess

This is fun. Los of fun generators for randomness. It even has a character generator! Coolies!

random stuffage from seventh sanctum:

Magical Knight Generator:
This lazy magic knight has slanted gray eyes and waist-length, curly, silky, red hair worn in an exotic style. He has a masculine build. He has holy powers that are activated by concentration. His semi-transparent outfit is mostly blue.

Bishotron:
This man's amethyst eyes are those of a prowling panther. He has shoulder-length, straight, ash gray hair that is styled in a way reminicent of a wave of water. His physique is very elegant.

Fwee... That was fun. ^^ Now I'm off to continue coloring Hideki in.. ^^

When termites attack...
listening to: watching: Moonchild
wishes for: HidekixAki numminess <3

...the ceiling on my roof gets to be the victim. >.> I now have no sanctuary. All hell shall break loose. I'll be leeping in my grandparent's room for the meantime. That means early wake up hours. Early sleeping time. No reading manga before bed. Someone save me. Please.

They're fixing my ceiling right now, and I don't know how long it would take them. I need my sanctuary back. ;__; I don't know how long I'll last if I don't have it.. ;___; *sobs*

The copy of Moonchild i have, however, is non-subbed. Thank god i have a good knowledge on the language so i at least understand what's going on.. I hope. *is still watching* Hyde and Gackt are so adorable together.. *squee* If anyone knows where to get a subbed Moonchild copy, please tell me. I don't think I'd like to watch it with a lot of squealing fangurls behind me on Friday.. NKK's having a mini-Japanese Movie fest showing a bunch of japanese animations and films starting 8 am and will go on up to 7 in the evening. They're showing Moonchild at 2 in the afternoon. I have no class at that time, but I'm sure there would be a lot of squealing fangurls skipping class just to watch it. And i don't like squealing fangurls behind my back. It'll ruin my watching mood.

Hmmm.. what else.. Oh. Went to school today. I said went. It doesn't necessarily means that I attended classes, right? *wink*

#@*^$&*@#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
listening to: Saeko Chiba - Sayonara Solitaire
wishes for: inspiration

...Crap. Just plain crap. I've lost all my will to work on ANYTHING. I'm supposed to be doing INTRODB work, but fuckin' hell, i've lost all my will to write. >.< And make that ER Diagram we're supposed to make. What the fuck is happening to me?!?! *frustratedarghsheeyut*

Bah. I don't want to write anything anymore. >.>

Hanging Out
lsitening to: Shin Hakkenden - Memories
wishes for: the old days

Last night, there was an earthquake. I thought it was a dream. O__o Oh-kaaay.. Strange ne? Mm.

Today, woke up late. Ate five pieces of suman. Went to SM to ParaPara with Kang and Khan and Jem. Creole was supposed to come with us since she was supposed to go to school. Um.. that's about it. ParaPara'd from three to five-ish. Then we all ate beef bowls at Yoshinoya. x3 Aaaaaaaaaah.. How I miss ParaPara Dancing. >3 It was fun. Got to do Easy Busy only once though.. Mikado twice. Got the hang of it already. Muhahaha. Kang and I want the ParaPara machine all to ourselves. We plan to buy it. Some day. >D

Aaaaaaaaanyway, Kang ends up sleeping over with me tonight.

And remember kids, 10 x 0 is ALWAYS equal to 0. *inside joke* Muahaha.

Feel sorta better now. Love you Kang. Love you Creole. Love you Ross. Thanks Aliah. Hi Mike.

Hmmmm.. Might write another serious post tomorrow. Anyways, 'till the next update~

Toodles~ <3

No, Seriously...
listening to: Story of the Year - Anthem of Our Dying Day
wishes for: sweet, sweet melancholy

Things happen. And when they happen, we usually can't do anything about it. It's already happened, it's already done and there's nothing we can do about it. What we can only do and hope for is that we make the right choices, the right decisions to make the future a little more desirable than what we're experiencing now. That's what Fate and Destiny is all about. Whatever decisions we make, what actions we do, whatever we think about, it all leads us to one destination. We'll always find ourselves facing our destiny. We are being guided, being shown choices, but our decisions, our choices is what makes our destiny.

So why am I blabbering about these things? At first, it was for nothing. For no reason at all. Except maybe some hints at DesCha. But when I realized it, I wanted to write about something else. Something I haven't written about yet. Something that I haven't talked to anyone about yet. Or maybe I *have* talked to someone about it, I just forgot.. Or that person never really thought much or did much about it.

What I am going to write next, I just want to be read. I don't want to wake up the next morning with my inbox/flooble/comment box full of pity and being sorry for me. No, I don't need those. I just need to get this thing out. See, if I keep it in, the pressure of it will build up, and if it stays in and never gets out, then BOOM! One day, I'll just snap and people'll probably find me behind bars or in the loony bin. Who knows. All I ask is for you to read. Don't do anyting, because you can't do anything anymore. Don't say anything because I already know what you'll be saying. I don't need that. I don't need anything right now except for people to read this. And get this out.

You see, this all started even before I was born. Some people might already know the reasons of my birth. Some might just shrug it off thinking I wask kidding, or just won't believe me. I was born just a month after my parents' wedding day. My mother was 19 years old when she had me. And she was eight months pregnant when they married. I guess it was a fad then, or maybe up to now. Premarital sex leading to a somewhat unwanted marriage just to make sure that none of the parties concerned feel guilty. And then, I was just there. And maybe it was my fault. And maybe it wasn't. But it was THEIR choice. It was my parents' choice. And who am I to complain? I *am* just a byproduct of two sex cells meeting. Nothing more. And so, I grew up. But I wasn't raised by my parents. They were too busy "studying" for college. My dad was in his last year taking his pre-med and my mom was finishing up her Jouralism course. My mom passed, no big. My dad never continued to study medicine though. Don't know why. WIll probably never know why. Wouldn't care. It's his decision. The point is, they didn't raise me. Technically, they just brought me to the waking world and left me to my grandparents. I don't think they have any right to be called "mom" and "dad" by me. I don't think they even deserve to be called "parents". But that's how the world goes. It's better to have something called "parents" than none at all. It's how society deictates it. It's a standard that everyone has to have or else you're not part of the circle. Frankly, I dont' care anymore. Anyway, getting to the point. I used to be nice. yeah. I used to care a lot about them, because I didn't know. Maybe if i still didn't know, I'd still care. But I grew up. I grew up, brought up by good people, had a seemingly normal life. By the time I reached elementary, I knew something wasn't right about my family. I was a loner when I was in grade school if I wasn't clinging on to Carla or to Jaya. They were the first ever friends I had. We used to hang out a lot. Until third grade, where we kinda got split up. That was when we rarely got to ever see each other. And that was also around the time i first got to know the word "dysfunctional". It's an adjective. The adjective that describes my family. So nothing is perfect. Nothing ever was. Three or four years later, I had no God anymore. Because all I did when i discovered that word was "pray". Just like my Grandmother told me. Because "people up there" will hear it and will make things better. But it never did. And I just didn't believe anymore. I only believed in what I can do, in what people can do. And usually, people hurt you. I met new people, made friends, some of them still are, and those who still are remain very dear to me. And I guess, I consider them more my family than what binds me by my blood. Family never necessarily meant being bound by blood to each other. You just have to understand each other. And that's what we have. We understand each other, behind all that fighting, all that misunderstanding. Because me and my friends actually find a way around whatever problem we have. Sometimes, we do isolate ourselves, but in the end, we find that we're together again. I never had that in the family I'm blood-bound to. THe problems just keep appearing, and if any one of us try to at least solve it, something goes wrong. And it's usually because of my mother or my father. More often it's because of my mother. And no, I don't want any part of it anymore. And i think my parents know that. I ran away once or twice. Because I never liked how my mom treated me. So I'm a rebel. Who isn't? That probably is my fault, but it's my decision as well. And so far, I've been good. And frankly, I'm glad I made that decision. I know it's going to hurt me at some point, but I don't care. I'll live through it. I know I'm strong enough. And so, right now, the only person most affected by all this is my youngest sister. She's the only person left living with my parents. She's the only person left who's putting up with their bickering, their fighting, their late night arguements. And I'm sure that it's hurt her emotionally, psychologically. And I've always wanted to take her away from all that. But she doesn't want to be taken away. I don't know why. Never asked why. It's her choice. I have to respect that. But I hate what my parents are doing to her. Lately, I've been noticing that my dad's been acting secretively. Having phone calls with whispered voices, going to "work" late at night and coming home two days later. That made my mom snap. And it's been like that for the past years already. No, I'm not caring because they're my parents. I don't care about them, about what they do. I don't want anything to do with them. I'm caring about my sister, who I'm afraid will not grow up right. In fact, she's already showing signs. What signs? She's bloody carving numbers on her bloody hand with a bloody knife. She's bloody going out with someone twice her bloody age. Gods, i won't be surprised if she gets pregnant during her college life. The point is, I don't think I can help her anymore. And everything is up to her. Up to them. Up to whatever choice they make.

And there I ranted without thought. And there I rabled on without coherence. And there I declare that I do not give a damn anymore.

Works in Progress
listening to: Miyavi - Happy End no Uta
wishes for: money to buy me an SD13 Boy

1. If Only - Suikoden Fanfic 98% done
2. War of Emperium Ch2 - Ragnarok Online fic - 10% done
3. Red Moon Murders Ch1 - 0% done And I said I'd make the scripts.. >.>
4. GoxLayp Skit 1 - 10% done I have no humor -__-;
5. TsumexToboe pic - 25% done
6. Aki's dA Kiriban - 0% done Evil procrastinator
7. Procrastination - 0% done I'll do it tomorrow. I swear.

And that, my dear ladies and gentlemen, proves that chickens indeed have taken over my brain and intended to rule the world. That or college just hates my guts and isn't giving me any inspiration for all that. >.<

Crap it all.

And to top it all off, the Miyavi songs I downloaded were kinda disappointing.. >.> And Mini Moni attempted to brainwash me with their songs, too. >.> Thank god for J-rock.

Ooooh!! Downloaded a copy of Moonchild yesterday. Took me almost the whole effin' day to do that. Dunno why. I'm supposed to be having this fast connection called DSL. Of course, I know there are better connections out there, but why the effin hell was my download effin' slow? >.< Haven't watched it yet, though. Want to, but haven't.

Read this really cute shounen ai story yesterday called Spontaneity. Edan is just sooo adorable *goes off to make fanart*

Got to talk with Seme-sama again ^^ HerHis insane laptop's sparklie and has good stuffus now. ^^ She He's happy ^^ And he loves to molest.

I miss her. Haven't talked to her in ages. *sobs* ...Or maybe it *was* just a passing obsession. But why do I still think of her? Am I only making believe that I like someone else because I do miss her and my subconscious just wants to kick my ass and make me realize that i really reall really miss her? That was as confusing as hell, but who cares.

Before I depart, a quote from Spontaneity:

"...chickens are far more intelligent than they let on to be and I have discovered that they are hell bent on taking over the world." -Prince(ss) Edan(a), Prince(ss) of Niall

Eh? ... O__O!!!
listening to: Sister Princess - Love Destiny
wishes for: SD13 LE Chris ver2

Love Destiny is an extremely cute song. ^^ I like listening to it. And because I like listening to it, I kinda sing along sometimes. And because I feel nice today (Wolfram x Yuuri..!!! Yesssssss!!!) here are the cute lyrics of the cute cute cute song~

Love Destiny
Yui Horie
Sister Princess Op

Aitai ai ai ai ai no ni
aenai ai ai ai kon'ya wa
Mado wo utsu ame yori
Hageshii arashi ni yureteru
aenai ai ai ai ai kara
motto ai ai ai tsunoru yo
moe tsukite mo ii kore ga saigo no shinjitsu

hajimete no deai wa heibon datta kedo
au tabini kakko no dare yori mo kikareteku

konna kimochi no wake umaku ienai kedo
unmei no koi to hito wa yobu no deshou
hitomi tojitara futari ni nareru
ima tatoe kono heya hitori demo
It's my only destiny

Aitai ai ai ai ai no ni
aenai ai ai ai kon'ya wa
katteni afureteku dekijou wo tomerarenai

dakara ai ai ai aitai
dakedo ai ai ai aenai
mou modore wa shinai
kore ga saigo no shinjitsu

dareka wo omou toki kurushiku naru nante ne
kore made no jibun ga tsugi tsugi ni kuzureteku
poozu to wa urahara makikomarete yuku kanji
mienai chikara de kikiyoserarete yuku
hitomi sorasazu futari ni nareta
ano yoru no kodou wasurenai It's my last destiny

Aitai ai ai ai ai no ni
aenai ai ai ai kon'ya wa
Mado wo utsu ame yori
Hageshii arashi ni yureteru
aenai ai ai ai ai kara
motto ai ai ai tsunoru yo
moe tsukite mo ii kore ga saigo no shinjitsu

nee fushigi kare wo omotte nakeru yoru ga arutte
maru de Love Song

dakara ai ai ai aitai
dakedo ai ai ai aenai
mou modore wa shinai
kore ga saigo no shinjitsu

I just love that song.. ^^

Speaking of songs, I heard this freakishly freakish song while eating dinner tonight. ABS-CBN dubs Ragnarok the Animation, right? Guess what? They made this sucky freaky ugly godforsaken Tagalog version of We are the Stars, RtA's opening theme. O__O FUCK YOU ABS-CBN! THANK YOU FOR MAKING MORE CRAP THAT WE DON'T NEED!

And they have no right to sue me. Everything in here is of my own opinion and no one can make me change that. *deathglares at ABS-CBN*

Moving on... Played StarCraft today like hell. Didn't eat lunch because of that. O__o Must practice more. Zergs rule. Terrans suck eggs. Protoss are cool. I really, *really* need to practice again. I am SO gonna kick Antet's ass when I play against him again. >D

I still want a SuperDollfie 13. Preferrably the LE Chris ver2. Or an FCS that would look like Chris ^^ I can't wait until I have an SD13~ <3 I would die happy when I do get one. ^^

Another thing I'd like to talk about tonight would be the Mini Moni movie, The Great Cake Adventure. Mini Moni is actually a subgroup of Morning Musume, and they make silly genki songs, too. Ai Takahashi is cute. O__O Actually, they're all cute. ^^; I like Mari Yaguchi bestest, tho.. But enought about that. More on the movie.

It's deathly cute. OwO See? I even did the demented panda smile. ^^; The movie is just soooo adorable! Their 3D characters were just sooo cute! And the songs were uberly genki!!! OwO I like it!! ^^ Everyone should watch it!

Er.. anyways, that's it for me now. ^^;; I'll be reinstalling StarCraft in a while so I can play it ^^

Toodles~ <3

Whee! 295 Posts~
listening to: Melocure - Itoshii Kakera
wishes for: SD13F28FCS ^^

Yay! My 295th Post, celebrated by a New Layout! Whee~ <3

Anyways, still obsessed with the Super Dollfies. Especially the SD13 ones.. I hear (or read, whichever is more appropriate) that Kaede is a new type of SD all in all. The SDCute... I think it's a little smaller than the MSDs.. I'll do more research but the site's in Japanese and I cant raed Kangji without the furigana. >.> Useless me.

Anyways, I have to be preparing for a test tomorrow.

Ah, gee. What a useless 295th post.. Whatever. I'll make a more long and more nice post once i reach the 300th ^^ Might do a kiriban for that, but i still have to do Aki's.. >.> Lazy, lazy me.

Toodles~ <3

Worship the Super Dollfie 13~ Wheee~ <3
listening to: Orange Range - Viva Rock
wishes for: SD13F28FCS please?

Photobucket is screwed died, but they say they'll come back Tuesday PST [Monday, GMT -6, whatever those timezones mean]. And that is why my layout looks awful. >.< Unless the problem is on MY poor, battered, and not-so-useful-anymore Jimmy.

...And now I'm thinking of changing my layout. Again. >.< Err.. Yeah. Because September is almost ending. That's why. *lamelamelame*

I want an SD13F28FCS Volks SuperDollfie, preferrably, someone who looks like my Chris <3. I'd also like an LE Nanjou, an LE Konoe and an LE Tohya *claimclaimclaim* >3 LE Kai is too scary ;o;

I would gladly give up/skip one term of my whole college life for one of them or the FCS I chose. But it *would* be nicer if someone gave me one *wishwishwish* ^^;

Last night, I couldn't sleep because all I did was think of the perfect SD13 I wanted and the perfect name to go with him. I decided that I will call my SD13 Boy (if that day will come) Ritsuka ^^

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways, I should stop dreaming and read my INTRODB book now. The PCCDB idea Myk suggested was the one Sir Oli picked. ^^; Hehe. So there.

Till my next update~

Toodles~

PS: Oniichan has been acting strange around me recently... or am I just being paranoid? O__o

Jack the Ripped Off
listening to: Kimi ga Nozomu Eien - Rumbling Hearts
wishes for: More deathnote, her. More L. *nibbles on L's ear*

Would You Rather...

1) pierce your nose or tongue?
eew. never

2) be serious or be funny?
serious.

3) drink whole or skim milk?
chocolate milk, please

4) simple or complicated?
simple

Do You Prefer...

5) flowers or angel figurines?
eew. never.

6) grey or gray?
black.

7) colored or black-and-white picture?
it depends on what the picture is

8) lust or love?
...no comment. ^^

9) sunrise or sunset?
sunset. sunrises tell me to go back to bed.

10) M&Ms or Skittles?
Both! <3

11) rap or rock?
J-rock. :3

12) staying up late or waking up early?
staying up late!! whee!

13) TV or radio?
tee vee~~

15) eating apples or oranges?
apples! ^^

Answer Truthfully...

16) Do you have a crush?
yeah

17) Who is it?
klajsdfherkajsdfa

Do You Prefer...

18) being hot or cold?
um... o__o? cold?

19) tall members of the opposite sex?
i like shota men who are a little taller than i am. :3

20) sun or moon?
the moon!

21) emeralds or rubies?
diamonds~ are a girls~ best~ frieeend~~~ <3

22) left or right?
left

23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?
i'd rather have a bestest bestest friend. or be alone for the rest of my sad life

24) sun or rain?
rain! ^^ makes me happy

25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?
VANILLA!!! x3 with chocolate syrup! <3

27) green beans or carrots?
carrots, please

26) boys or girls?
both! :D

28) low fat or fat free?
um.. what?

Miscellaneous...

29) What is your biggest fear in the world?
falling down a flight of stairs.. @_@

30) Showbiz or Politics?
i hate both of them

31) Cat or dog?
NEKO!!! ^^

32) Half empty or half full?
half. just. half.

33) Mustard or ketchup?
ketchup!

34) Hard cover books or soft cover books?
hardcover books! they're more expensive, i know.. but! they're better. ^^;

35) Newspaper or magazine?
zines

36) Sandals or sneakers?
sneakers!

37) Wonder or amazement?
wonder AND amazement!

38) Red car or white car?
Black Ford Lynx.

39) Happy and poor or sad and rich?
Sad and rich. Feed me angst.

40) Singing or dancing?
parapara! whoo!

41) Hugging or kissing?
both!

42) Corduroy or plain?
stripes, dots and checkers. ^^

43) Happy or sad?
angst

45) Blondes, brunettes?
dark brown haired men. or black haired men with strange eyes who likes sweets. *stalks L*

About You..

46. What time is it now?
3.25 pm. I'm supposed to be taking a bath.

48. Nickname?
Rika, reia, Jo, siosy

49. Names and ages of siblings?
aretha, 15

50. Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake?
there were.... lots. o__O

51. Pets?
i have three cats! ^^

52. Eye color?
dark brown

53. Hair color?
dark brown!

54. Piercings?
just the ears, please

55. Clean guy/gal/ pierced guy/gal?
piercings turn me off.

56. Who's on your mind right now?
L

Random rant

GADDEMMET RAITO!! WTF ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE?!?!? >.< AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!! D<

I heart L. o__o

Collective Blogging
listening to: Para Para Paradise - Deltadance.com
wishes for: Deathnote, RaitoxLxRaito, inspiration, yaoi, her.

Sept. 17, 2004: I got kidnapped
Mike, Rey and Niko and I all thought it was Zagi's birthday party and farewell party. But noooo... We got kidnapped. Where were we sent? To this god-awful "place with a whiteboard and a fucking marker". Legacy for Life. Crap you. Every bloody line they said was bloody scripted. Bloody Mark Dapiton is a bloody fucker who bloody fucks his own fucking car. Bloody arrogand bastard. Buuut.... Now I know where other teens get their "extra cash" from.

Sept. 18, 2004: UGotGame
I went there to have fun, to meet people and to help Ross a bit. Went there early morn, they were still setting the place up. Got to molest the Bard Cardboard cutout. Yess... Ended up joining the On The Spot Ragna Fanart Contest, Juno theme. Drew a female alchemist. The UGotGame cosplay rocked. Iori was lame, he didn't have broad shoulders, Kyo was stupid looking, Mai was... fat, Kerrigan was hot, the FFX cosplayers mostly sucked and..... the Hydralisk 0wnz j00! the Ragna cosplay had lots of monks, a bunch of alchemists, a handful of crusaders, and practically none of the rest. Oh, and the ragnacosplay had little kids who were forced to cosplay against their will.

Sept 18, still.
Khan's Bday. Greeted him the first thing in the morning. After the UGG event, went to Kang's play with Mike. It was a SUCCESS!!! xD Loved every bit of it. x3

Sept 19
I love you. I miss her. ;__;

It was either the 20th or the 21st...
Bought new clothes. :3 I rock.

Last night
Got to talk with Arred and Oniichan. Arred is Oniichan's Ukeboi. O__O!! Got to talk to them for a loooooooooooong time. Oniichan and I
was supposed to 3way Kang after the first hour with Arred, but someone picked the phone up, didn't bother to answer, and tehn put the phone down again. No wonder. It was almost midnight. O__o So, we talked with arred again. It was fun. ^^ I wish we could talk like that again. Oh, and Oniichan might get back by January. Yay! ^^

Just a while ago...
Got to hold brains. O__o Gave Khan's gift. Hanged out with him at Megamall and Shang. My legs hurt. I shall hate that bloody effin stairs for teh rest of my life. The next time I'm riding the MRT at Shaw, I shall enter Shang first. >.<

Aaaaaaaaand...
That's it. :3

Toodles~

Eh..? o__o
listening to: Melocure - First Priority
wishes for: any form of contact with her

Oh dear, I'm bored. Finally got the psychology book. Amazing that our prof kept me awake last Wednesday. He was boring last monday.. Or maybe I was just too sleepy last Monday to pay attention to him..

Got a Kafra desktop assistant, an annoying poring bouncing around my desktop, and my desktop is extremely Ragnarok Online themed. Even the mouse pointers and my winamp skin is ragnarok themed. The hell?

And I have one complaint in life. Why is it that when I like someone I find out that someone else has 'claimed' that person as his/hers? It makes me feel like I can't touch that person anymore. *pouts*

I was eating at Italianni's at Glorietta for lunch at three 'cause it took Papa too long to get out of his office.. @_@ was really hungry. I ate Chicken Parmagiana. It was delish <3 Anways, during lunch, I had this thought... I wanted my own domain. My own domain would probably cost between $9.50 to $20 a month. Lots of money ne? Prolly more than the laptop I'll (hopefully) get at the end of the term. Anyways, I thought of what I'd name my domain. And then it hit me. I like chocolates and strawberries, ne? So I thought, hey, why not name my future domain name "ChocoIchigo.net"? Cute name, ne? And I think it hasn't been used yet. Hopefully, I'd be able to get enough money by next year to get my own domain name. I want that domain name. *lusts for it*

Downloaded a bunch more mp3s, finally got a copy of Ask DNA... Hrmm.. Oh, they said there was an earthquake 3am today. Slept through the whole thing. Which reminds me, I have to call Khan about that thing he texted me this morning.. O__o 'tis somewhat disturbing..

Oh, here's a nice little thingy to leave here before I go. ^^

**Descibe your Dream Wedding** One where I don’t have to wear a dress. I want to wear a tuxedo, HE can wear the dress.

Toodles~


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Yoshiki-- you're basically a god when it comes to
what you've been able to accomplish in life.
You're one of the most talented people in the
world. You write beautiful music. You're
hightly attractive, sensitive, and influential.
And you can get laid when you're nearing 40;
you really are a god.


Which member from X Japan are you most like?
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Otanjoubi Omedetou~
listening to: Gravitation - Smashing Blue
wishes for: I wanna talk to her again ;o;

Otanjoubi Omedetou Hideki~ *glomps Hideki*

Aside from that, today was the first day back at school. The first two subjects were okay. The teachers seemed fun. And then the GenPsyc prof ruined the whole mood. I fell asleed for half his class. He is effin' boring.

Ross, sorry I wasn't able to go with you to RP. The driver was already waiting for me outside Gox.

Aaanyways, speaking of genpsyc, I'll just relate some of the events and some thought provoking er.. thoughts i had today. This morning, I saw someone and noticed that he was absolutely sexy. Yes he was. Very much so. And I declared that I wanted to rape him because of that, IF i were a guy, and someone said that it would be better if i just stayed as a girl cause it was better that way, and i kinda said that it would work as well. Actually, I only wanted to give him a really big hug and er.. maybe a kiss or two. He replied with something like, "Tara, sige.. kaso baka kung ano magawa ko sayo ha.." (Come on, let's do it.. but I might do 'something' to you...) Of course, everyone that was around knew, felt and noticed we were just kidding around. BUT! Here's where the genpsyc whatever comes in. If i were him, regardless of liking yaoi, gay relationships, anything that screams gay, declares itself as gay and/or bisexual, would I react the same way? If i had told that to someone who was uber straight AND hates anything to do with yaoi, etc? What if he replied differently? He did kind of look not in the mood when he came by. If, it happened, that he didn't reply with the way he did? Would it make me look stupid? Or would I have offended him? People tend to react badly to what they fear. Would that mean that person would be afraid of me telling him (in a rather extremely exaggerated manner) that he's sexy? Or is he afraid of complemets? Or is it because he's afraid of gay or any bisexual/homosexual relationships? Or would it be simply because I said I'd rape him? O__o

Ah, crap. That did not make any sense at all. >.>

And this was supposed to be a birthday post to Hi-chan.. >.>

I've got that feeling of impending doom...
listening to: Ohmori Reiko - Transparence
wishes for: no more spaghetti ;__; more chocolates

I have ube! yay! xD

Ate lots of spaghetti whcih made me feel sick.. Puked twice @_@ I still feel awful.

DesCha's got a new recruit ^^

This is hilarious. xD

And tomorrow, school starts. *sobs*

obsessions and updates
listening to: Orange Lounge - Mobo*Moga
wishes for: bishies galore~

Long time no update. Finally gotten a new layout. Nyaha! Minagawa-tama~ *fangirls* New obsessions include Cafe Kichijoji de, Loveless, King of Bandit Jing, Eurobeat(*gasp*), the music genre and not the song, shotacon -- no, wait, that's old news... err.. and Tomy being an uke. xD

Oniichan's been updating the DesCha site... not much there yet, but it's comin'.. Erm.. what else.. oh, i need to finish 10 masks by the end of the day o__o Gots to para para with Ross twice this week, will cut my hair tomorrow.

Doomsday is on Monday. School starts monday. Myk will kill me for not attending the teambuilding today. But I was at school up to eight thirty today to pay me tuition fees. Got to see Joyce there, too.

Err.. haven't talked to anyone on the phone in ages.. 'cept for khan. And creole.

Levelled arizel up to 46 this week, less than 30% and she's 47. Khan~~ Thanks for the stuff~ I still have your pretend murdered~ Thankiesh for lending it to me~ ^^ I have your oridecon with me, too~ ^^; I'll give it to you next time we meet~ OH!! And thanks for the OPB, the lunatic egg, the silk robe, the sandals and the carrot juices~ ^^ and the 10k you gave me. ^^; Whee~ *tackleglomps yew*

I miss eating cake. o___o and Ice cream, and pie, and egg tarts. And baking cookies, too. ^^;

Aaaaaaaaanyways, i really need to make those masks ^^;

Toodles~

*scream*
listening to: Earth Girl Arjuna - Kuuki to Hoshi
wishes for: a better pc

Ugh. Dad took away the logitech mouse with teh scrolly thingy in the middle and replaced it with a genious mouse with no scrolly thing in teh middle, so i'm trying to adapt. Jimmy is being a prick and has lots of viruses. >.< I need a better pc. Jimmy keeps hanging, there's the mouse problems, there's the cd burner problems, there's the OS problems.. Meh. Damn you microsoft. >.<

Got to play pRO a while ago. Might play a little later. Levelled 20% up on arizel (currently 44/33). Nigel asked for a tank. Ended up tanking a lv12 Aco instead.. who disappeared wiffout saying goodbye. >.< Went back to the pyramids to level up. "Effin lag." -Creole.

Survival project is addicting. I have yet to download and play Gunbound. Someone give me the url, I'm too lazy to search for it.

It's somewhere past 7, nearly 7 thirty methinks... and i've just woken up from me nap.. I'm supposed to be working on ten or so masks for the play the DramaGuild's working on right now.. >.> Meh. Sounds manager na nga ako, tapos ginawang prop girl pa. [I'm already a sounds manager, and they make me prop girl as well.] Meh. Oh well. I'll have a better position after the fifth anniversary. x3

Cholo has a blog. Go visit and pester the shorts-wearing tarsier gaylord. xD Aaah, yes.. pre-finals madness still lingers. That yahoo conference was one of the bestest. Ever. xD We should do that often. :D

Mmm.. What else... Oooh, i've finished book 9 of The Wheel of Time!!! And I find out that it isn't over with book ten just yet!! Ooooohh....!!!! The suspense!!!! >w< I've just gotten past chapter 1 of book10, and then i fell asleep... and i just woke up. hehe. ^^; Oh well. ^^; Will continue reading it later. *is so excited* You guys should go read the book!!! It's just soooo cool~~~ xD SPOILER: Elayne's pregnant!! Mat's just proclaimed that Tuon's his wifey!! Nyneave and Lan remind me oh so much about Rika and suise.. and it's not just because Lan used to be ever so cold hearted and Nyneave's wearing a braid most of the time o0 whoo for spoilerage! xD

The end.

FRUSTRATED
listening to: Sister Princess - Maboroshi
wishes for: priority downloads for Shinchaos. All the time.

fuckingdhemmet!!!!!!!!!!!!1 *shakes fist* This sucks!!! >.< As soon as I logged on mIRC today, I was number one at Shinchaos' queue list with a 3/5 priority 'cause I'm a regular and voiced, and with only three hours left to wait to get my first ever BL game (Shounentachi no Byoutou -- the one with the really nummy smex scenes in hospital wards.. mmm..). That's good right? Right. Three hours pass by and I get download it. I was extremely happy. I cancelled all other downloads and closed all programs just so the transfer would be faster. And then guess what? Fifteen percent into the download, approximately one hour, my pc decides to fucking hang.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

>.< I hate you Jimmy. I swear, when I get my laptop, I am so gonna make fun of you, you damned machine you! >.<

lackage of inspiration
listening to: The Scanty - Rock 'n Roll Princess
wishes for: inspiration. or more sleep. whichever comes first.

The neko has finally lost all her inspiration to write or draw. Is it because of the impending doom course card day? Maybe. Is it because it's been weeks since the neko last talked to her? Maybe. Or both? Most probably.

I need chocolates. And cake. And ice cream. And more animanga stuff. Yess... Those are the best ingredients for inspiration.. Mm..

try other channels? ^_~:: dami dyan -irc.y-hosting.net try here kso onti lang tau d2 but there glad to help.

Oh i forgot イチャイチャパラダイス　ヘルプ meron me *_* and im still playing it.

yaoi games = BL-game
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DeepRoute-san? Who are you? And which channels do i go to at irc.y-hosting.net? ^^;;; Thanks for suggesting that nga pala. ^^

I'm back! *expecting loud cheers but gets crickets chirping*
listening to: Hysteric Blue - Candy
wishes for: someone to take me away from here... preferably her.

Okay, something's wrong with this keyboard. I cant type properly anymore... That or my hand's gone and grew a little bigger. O_o

Or it's because i haven't used the computer for three days straight. O__O

And OMG, i posted two quiz posts one after the other!!!!!!! What have I done?! I can't believe myself, not posting anything but quiz results. >.< What's happening to mee??? Have I lost the will to rant?! *gasp* Nooooooo...!!!! *sobs* An' I keep losing inspiration to write, too. I can't write a decent reply to rpg's anymore *sobs* (That's with DesCha aside.. 'Cause DesCha's special.)

What am I gonna do? I'm supposed to be writing the scripts for Red Moon Murders!!! >0< I have the fixed plot already, tho. At least I have that. ^^;;

Ooohh, Kyou Kara Maou ep16 is subbed and out! *glomps AnimeOne* xD Yaaaaaaaaaaay~~ *runs off to go download the raws for episode 17*

...Feh. Only three hours of being awake and I'm bored already. >.> This bites. And it's supposed to be our vacation!!! >.< Sucky vacation this turns out to be.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaanyways, here's what has been happenin to me:

Went karaoke-ing with Val, Anne, Ajong and Ross last thursday. It was uber fun!! Ross! I'll pay you back that fifty! I swear!! And Val! I have to have a copy of that pic!! Okie? ^^ Okie!

Friday was the last day I got to see Kinji-san and Yutaka-san. Yutaka caught me staring at him. Dreamily. Ack..!! >.< That was awful! >.<

Saturday I was mallhopping! Whee! First stop, I was at Galle where Khan, me and Creole watched The Stepford Wives. Really good movie. Nicole Kidman was just so pretty... *w* ANd after, we passed by MegaMall and tehn ended up at Shang where Khan and I played Dance Maniax. Mm.. After that I went straight to G4 to have free food celebrate Eunice's birthday. Whee! Sushi!! Whoo~~ ^^ We were at Timezone until around 11, and then Cholo took me home. Thanks Cholo! Ooh, speaking of Cholo, he was the night's Tarsier boy and we picked on him 'cause he was wearing shorts. xD Ooooh yeah.

Sunday I slept the whole day. o___o no really I did. Except I woke up in the evening, and then Ate Ouine suddenly came by so my plans of going online went poof. But we had a really nice talk about Lord of the Rings, which was showing on HBO. She left past eleven. And then I watched Cowboy Bebop. It rules. It was so awsome!! It really is!! Spike is cool! So was Vincent. I watched the dubbed one last night on Creole and Khan's suggestion. ^^; Will watch the Subbed version after breakfast.

Yes, breakfast. I haven't eaten anything yet.

Oooooooooooooooh.... Lookie~ long post! Yay! ^^ But I'm hungry, so I hafta go. ^^;

toodles~

ripped off. again.
listening to: Fruits Basket - Chiisana Inori
wishes for: no more work *sob*






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You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.


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Industrial rock! Just like Marilyn Manson, you
know what you have to say and you just say it!
I like you very much...just be careful you
don't scare me away...


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Was also supposed to type up a rant last night, but i forgot what about. O_o

bored, oh so fucking bored
litening to: lab silence
wishes for: chocolates! lots of goddamned chocolates, demmet!!


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You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
rate my quiz, I think your voice in just
beautiful?


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You are the Strange Creature that fell from the
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any kind of realtionship. You have peculer ways
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Your: Cool kitten. Your super cool, cute and
popular. your sweet on the guys and totally
into fashion. You are naturally a perfectionist
and are very artisitc.


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You are: Yellow Crayon


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Three things that...
litening to: Okazaki Ritsuko - For Fruits basket
wishes for: her safe trip ^^

...you never knew about Rika:
1. I like shota *w*
2. I sucked my thumb until I was in 4th grade *runs and hides*
3. I have a relationship with my pillow OwO *hugs Mr. Kamui pillow*

...Rika does when waking up:
1. Go back to sleep
2. Try to go back to sleep and forget about going to school
3. When all else, fails, try draging my ass off the bed and take a goddamned bath.

...Rika likes best:
1. Shounen-Ai
2. Her
3. Chocolates

...you'll catch Rika doing:
1. Drawing
2. Sleeping
3. Online

...Rika listens to everyday:
1. My mp3 collection
2. My fingers tapping on the keyboard
3. My grandmother nagging at me to go to sleep because it's 2 in the morning and I'm still online. ^^;

...you'll never catch Rika doing:
1. Run around naked singing "I have a lovely bunch of coconuts...."
2. Making a shrine for Barney, the fucking purple dinosaur
3. Pass a math exam TT^TT

...Rika wants to be when he/she grows up:
1. Mangaka
2. Professional Slacker
3. Kicker of Bill Gates Arse

...you might want to give Rika this Christmas:
1. Shounen ai/Yaoi manga
2. Elegant Goth/Loligoth dresses. Note the plural tense.
3. Anime OSTs

Haha. I got bored. ^^;

happy
listening to: my heart skip a beat
wishes for: her safe trip to Japan

I'm so happy.

I got my wish granted.

I'm talking to her right now.

I can die happy.

Good Mooooooooooooooooooooooorning!
listening to: Apocripha/0 - Blue Tail in the Cross Track 7 - Beryl and Seles
wishes for: yaoi smut

...I can't read gravitation remix volume 1 at school. You know, the one where Yuki and Shuichi do it in the recording sutdio and Sakano and Hiro happened to er... pass by. ^^; Tohma rules the world indeed. ^^

But!! I need my yaoi smut or else I don't think I'll be able to work properly. i'm supposed to be doing a flash animation for multmed which will be passed TONIGHT. frecking demmet. >.<#

AghIfeckingneedtoseetwomenscreweachothersilly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why can't we have yaoi games?! It's so fecking unfair that stores sell H-games, but you'll never get to see yaoi games!!! THIS IS UNFAIR!!! *sobsobsob*

Feck.

Ooh. Val and I are gonna make a yaoi rp blog thingy. x3 Anyone interested in joining should leave a note here. ^^ *smoochies*

Toodles~

<Ki' ichigo> it can be hard.....
<Ki' ichigo> but it is SOOOOO fun!
<Adagio> It looks like it.. I've only tried it a few times, and I sucked at it

Okay, so it would look sorta kinky.

We were talking about DDR. xD

Update! W00t!
listening to: gox lobby noises
wishes for: *blush* aah... *blush*

Oh-kay.. strange, frustraing and god-awful stuff have been happening in DesCha lately. Rika is such a frustrated mum, and she doesn't want to be ever mad at Hideki. *sobs* And Rika doesn't know what to do.. And then she learns that she's part Lalaika.. T3h GM gave some long info about it and they're basically a genetically enhanced human race of sorts that live with smilers. And that she's some sort of "chosen one". M3h. Oh, and her son's involved in an incestuous relationship with his slut of a cousin. *stabs Maya* Damn bi0tch.

Anyways, enough of the descha update. Ph3h. *stabs Maya again* Grr.

ENOUGH, i said. >.>

Graduated from ROTC last Saturday! Yay! And I met Artoo who looks like Hades without the CutesyWootsey Jpop habits. Nyaha. xD Played more Para para paradise and Dance Maniax wiff Creole. Saw kael again. Met cute guy who looks like aki who turns out to be parlor gay who smokes who isn't that cute in reality 'cause his smile sucks and he's just the wrong kind of gay demmet. >.<## Fecking hell.

I dun wanna fail Anmath1. Again. And Compro2. *sobs* Those are the two subjects that are kinda.. err.. in danger.. Not worried about multmed 'cause it fucking sucks. 'Sides, I'm sure I'd only get a 1.0 there. Feckingprofessorsuckstohighfeckinghell.

Gakuen Heaven = Fucking Heaven. *giggles like mad*

Loveless is just so lurvely. And Gravitation Remix is HAWT!! xD Yuki and Shuichi were just so adorably fucking sexay!! Literally!! *giggles like mad*

Hmm.. what else.. Mikey-poo mentioned me in his bloggie. Amaygad, I was just so oblivious. xD I didn't even notice he had this frickin crush on me on our 1st term in our 1st year. XD Amayfeckingad! *giggles like mad*

That's it I guess.. Oh, and I wish she wuffs meh. *w* *dreamy sigh* I really really wish so.. ^^ I know I wuff her soo mush. ^//////////////////^

toodles~~

PS
ROSS HAS A FECKING NEW HAIRCUT!! It looks good on him demmet!! x3

.......i seem to get people mad at me easily. haha.

*sulks in a corner*

ripped off. again.
listening to: my tortured soul angst about *bleeeeeeeeeeeeeep*
wishes for: Yutaka. *drool*

Met the Japanese students today. Kinji-kun is t3h fun. Yutaka is t3h bish. Will be taking Kinji-kun to Greenbelt tomorrow. Hopefully, I'd get back before my compro exam. Which i have yet to study. My MP is not yet done. Mwaha. I hate my life.

*sulks in a corner*

Your Motions

[ Current Clothes ] yellow shirt with pink print over black long sleeved top, wide bottomed denims and sneaks
[ Current Mood ] angsty.
[ Current Music ] Malice Mizer - Regret
[ Current Taste ] KFC HotShots drowning in gravy
[ Current Make-up ] What's... "make-up"?
[ Current Hair ] shoulder length hair, now wiff spiffy bangs, half pony
[ Current Annoyance ] my foot is itchy. it's ruining my angst
[ Current Smell ] city streets
[ Current Favorite Artist ] *stares at yew blankly*
[ Current Desktop Picture ] Kamui being angstu
[ Current Favorite Group(s) ] The Stand Up, AnimeOne.
[ Current Book you're reading ] *still* the Da Vinci Code. The Files reviewer doesn't count
[ Current CD in CD Player] Gravitation Vocal Collection
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] Toenail color
[ Current Refreshment ] I NEED COFFEE
[ Current Worry ] *sobs like there's no tomorrow*

LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] creole
[ You Talked to ] creole
[ You Hugged ] creole
[ You Instant messaged ] oniichan
[ You Yelled At ] my stupidity
[ You Kissed ] mr. kamui pillow. because i am sad and desperate and mr. kamui pillow is the bestest friend i have. *sniff*

FAVORITE...
[ Food ] chokoreeto ga suki desu! daisuki desu! -Kinji-kun
[ Drink ] rootbeer. sarsi forever.
[ Color ] black
[ Album ] X Single collection
[ Shoes ] my sketchers retros
[ Candy ] bubblegum
[ Animal ] aa.. neko daisuki desu! -Kinji-kun
[ TV Show ] Kyou Kara Maou!
[ Movie ] Loser
[ Dance ] Deluxe Eurobeat mix, Butterfly, Mobo Moga, Aishiattemasu?, Ale` Japan, 100
[ Song ] Crucify My Love
[ Vegetable ] Potatos
[ Fruit ] Strawberries, Watermelon, apple
[ Cartoon ] ANIME

ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] in anything except math and physics
[ Open-minded ] very much so.
[ Arrogant ] it depends
[ Insecure ] yes
[ Interesting ] i get boring after a while
[ Random ] rabbit?
[ Friendly ] *smile*
[ Smart ] Trust me, I'm about to fail compro2 and anmath1 again.
[ Moody ] Very.
[ Childish ] I'm a five year old trapped in an eighteen year old's body
[ Independent ] err..
[ Hard working ] never
[ Organized ] i dont clean my room.
[ Healthy ] i hope not
[ Emotionally Stable ] no.
[ Shy ] depends
[ Difficult ] huh?
[ Attractive ] hah.
[ Bored Easily ] yes. all the time.
[ Messy ] like i said. i don't clean my room
[ Thirsty ] uh huh
[ Responsible ] *raises eyebrow*
[ Obsessed ] yes.
[ Angry ] with myself.
[ Sad ] duh.
[ Happy ] no.
[ Hyper ] was.
[ Trusting ] depends on who you are and what you are to me.
[ Talkative ] not much anymore.

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Kill ] me.
[ Slap ] my mom, my grandma, basically anyone who wants me to be a mindless drone
[ Get Really Wasted With ] creole and kang
[ Get High With ] deschakada
[ Look Like ] Lhodo.
[ Talk To Offline ] deschakada.
[ Talk To Online ] her, deschakada, s19

[ My Name Is ] rika
[ In The Morning I Am ] never usually awake
[ All I Need Is ] her
[ Love Is ] killing me
[ I'm Afraid of ] love
[ I Dream About ] strange, idealistic and hopeless romantic shit

HAVE YOU EVER...
[ Pictured your crush naked? ] no comment
[ Actually seen ur crush naked ] no comment
[ Been in love ] so deep it hurts
[ Cried when someone died ] ........
[ Lied ] no.

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
[what do u notice first?] eyes
[last person u slow danced with] arred
[worst question to ask] ........

WHO...
[makes u laugh the most?] Creole
[makes you smile] deschakada, her, val, ross
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] her
[who do you have a crush on?] her
[who has a crush on u?] how the fuck should i know
[is easiest to talk to] creole

DO YOU EVER...
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] yes.
[save aol/aim conversations] i don't have aim
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] lotsa times
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yesh

HAVE YOU EVER....
[fallen for your best friend] no
[been rejected] no
[rejected someone] yes
[used someone] no comment
[been cheated on] how the hell should i know?
[done something you regret] duh

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON..
[you talked to on the phone] creole
[you laughed with] creole
[you said goodbye to] creole

DO YOU // ARE YOU...
[smoke cigarettes] it would kill me if i did
[obsessive] very much so
[could u live without the computer?] the computer is my life
[color ur hair] no. i want to.
[ever get off the damn computer] when they force me to.
[habla espanol] no intiende
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] 148 and counting
[drink alchohol?] no one will let me.
[like watching sunrises or sunset] ........
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] emotional. i angst a lot.

NUMBER...
of times I have had my heart broken?: i can't count.
of hearts I have broken?: two.
of guys I have kissed?: two.
of girls I have kissed?: on the cheek? lots.
of continents I have lived in?: one
of tight friends?: 6
of cd's that I own?: can't count
of scars on my body?: lots on my legs and knees. battlescars from when i was a kid
of things in my past that I regret?: lots


I KNOW: something you don't know
I WANT: that person to love me
I HAVE: a very big problem
I WISH: i was dead
I HATE: my life
I MISS: my old self
I FEAR: love
I HEAR: my tortured soul
I WONDER: if that person will ever love me back..
I REGRET: fuck you.
I LOVE: of course i do.
I ACHE: my tummy does. that's why i have medicines for that
I CARE: not
I ALWAYS: try to smile even when i don't want to
I AM NOT: not a hopeless romantic
I DANCE: in my dreams
I SING: jpop
I CRY: every night
I DO NOT ALWAYS: get so fucking obsessed like this