Shinnen Akemashite Omedetou~

Happy New Year~

hehe.. I watched Star Wars 2 just now.. and they're watching a pirated copy of Return of th ekings outside. :( I'd rather wait for January 6 for it to show here :(

^___^ heee~ anyway, i have books 5 to 7 of The Wheel of Time series, something i am very determined to finish :D

Anyway, since it's the end of 2003, maybe i'll go on ahead and make a sort of recap of the year.

>Rika's 2003 Recap!<

It sucked.
Really it did. What happened? People dying of some strange sickness. People thwapping other people over the heads just because they're in Afghanistan or in Iraq. People losing homes, relatives, friends and practically everything they worked hard for in some darned quarrel started by that American president person.

Ah, but then, who am i to talk? I'm only an ignorant girl. Pffft. T_T

What happened to me, then? Well, i turned 17, i missed c3 con, i lost my memory card, and when i did find it, it was broken, or almost broken. it still works. :D hehe... and hey! i had my blog this year~ i made my first post on february 2 or 4 this year. heheheh... what else.. oh, oniichan went to australia last august, arred proved that he has no backbone, i got into college, i kicked some jerk's ass, the deschakada has erm, nearly lost all forms of communication, and um.. um.. i cant remember much anymore.. heheheh.. ^^;;

Heeee~ what a long new year's post.. hehehehe..

Anyway, i guess that's it for me..

See ya next year~!! ^___^

Toodles~

Greetings

Meri Kursisumasu minnasan~ Ogenki de ne~

I hope you guys have a great time on Christmas~ ^___^ *muah*

Poof!

This shall be the last post i shall make before i leave..

..for Laguna, that is. Don't worry though, i'll post when i come back. :D

Yep, I'm taking off to Laguna. :D hehe. okay, so maybe not "taking off". I'm taking a little time off with some friends and classmates at Laguna, just to relieve the stress. The stress which has been laid upon us since the start of the second term.

Ooh, speaking of the stresses of the second term, i got my course cards today. Not very happy about my grades, but happy nonetheless. I got my first 4.0 today. PETEAMS. Geez, for all teh subjects to get the highest friggin grade a lasallian would get, it's PETEAMS. i wish it were ENGLONE. or COMPRO... *sigh* ah well.. and damnit! I do NOT deserve a 1.5 on BIOCOL1!!! I demand a recount! That darned teacher owes me at least a 3 on his damned subject!!! grrr!!! So far, i gots one 4.0, two 3.0s, two 2.0s and two 1.5s.. And the average of that would be... um... somewhere around 2.something. Not sure. I dont compute grades. Bleah.

Enough about grades. let's talk about tomorrow.

Yep, tomorrow, i wake up at five, eat -- or at least try to, take a bath, get dressed, get to school by 7am. We leave at around 8am, so we arrive at Laguna at around lunch time. Then we rest a while, then we have a bunch of activities, like scavenger hunting, capture the flag--yes!!-- and some other stuff. Then we take an even longer break and eat and shit. Prolly swim, too. And then night comes. We have our "Awarding Ceremonies" here. :D I hope i get an award, even if it is Most Noisy. ;D I hope my group's music video gets an award too, even if it is Most Idiotic. *sigh*

hehe.. ah well, the wheel weaves as the wheel wills or something like that.

Hehe.. Yeah, i be reading again. The Wheel of Time series by Robert Jordan. I hear there's a CCG out there.. anyways, i like Perrin Goldeneyes. He's a wolfbrother and/or blacksmith, which means he's uber cool. i also like Moiraine of the Blue Ajah. And Rand. Especially Rand al'Thor. he's angsting in book 3, the one i'm currently reading :D hehe.. i know, i easily fall for those angsty leads.. hehehe..

I just started collecting the books, all i have now is from book 1 to book 4. I think there are 9 or 10 in all. I wish to gather them all. I want to know what the Dragon Reborn would do next. Hehe.. ^____^

I wonder how the rest of the DesChaKada is doing.. I know how Khan's been doing. He's the only person in teh kada i've been talking to lately. Oniichan seems too far away, besides the fact that he's is Australia right now. I havent been in contact with the rest.. Creole yesterday, tho.. and Oneechan a while ago, asking about the Annual party we have. I wish it would push through this monday. But then again, if it were monday, I would spend the morning doing extreme last minute shopping 'cause i don't have a gift for khan and arred and marco and benji yet. I find it more hard to get gifts for males than for females. *shrug*

Heehee. this might be the longest post i've made, aside from the quiz posts.. ehehehehe...

Anyway, back to what i was saying, it's hard buying gifts for men than for women. It's easy for me to shop for presents for girls cause i know what we want. *wink* more or less. But guys are rather... difficult. you never know what they would like until you pry their brains open, which they rarely do. either that or whatever they want is too expensive for my budget.. which is somewhere around 200 to 300 bucks. bleah. i just wish they'd be satisfied for what i'd give them... or at least appreciate them.

And i wish that i get a lot of presents this year. And i want that Death manga figure i saw at Comic Odessy this afternoon. She was soooo pretty!! I wanted that figurine even if it costs a million whatsis!!!! I wish someone would give me that.. Or a beerkada collection.. or all 4 beerkada books..

My anime life sucks. I havent watched anything nice... Okay, so i've wathced something really really nice... Angel Sanctuary movie.. but still!!!!! I wanna watch gravitation!!! and matantei loki ragnarok!!! and x the series!!! and i want new manga!!! XXXholic would be nice.. or the ragnarok manga by lee myoung-jin.. or manga by Sakura Kinoshita.. Her artwork's cute.

*sigh*

i wish i get what i want even once... but then, if i get what i want so easily, the fun of haggling would disappear, and it might seem worthless.. ah well.. be careful of what you wish for, as they say.

6 days left before christmas!

toodles~

//currently arguing with jessie//

new layout!

because my old layout didn't work well with 800x600 screen settings. crap. i liked that layout. ah well. i like the new one too. ^______^ still matantei loki ragnarok ^___^ and it's roughly 7 days before christmas, and my christmas shopping isnt done! wah! X_x ah well. at least i'd be able to play pRO again ^^; after three months!!! hehe.. ^^;;

Moo.

I have no bloody idea why i am awake at this hour. Prolly 'cause i waited for my goddamned asshole brother to get off my computer so i can clear my email of the now active pRO_players ml. go join. Anwyays, what to rant about?

Ahh.. exams. so i didn't study that much, yeah whatever. bleah. i dunno..

Mm, oh yeah... i don't think i'd like to do some of those music videos anymore... they are a pain in the head... especially when you dont have experience... @__@

neeway, me sleepy so i rant later.. or next time... whatever.

toodles.

hitori means alone

gee, whiz. me's alone again. tis a big school with a lot of godforsaken people and i still find myself alone. T_T there are no friends here... T_T

damn them to hell.

okay, so maybe i just miss the gang.. i miss the times we'd stay up uber late just talking on the phone, almost all of us, 'cause me an' jessie gots 3way calling... and then oniichan got 3way calling eventually, so almost the whole gang was connected.. and we all talked at the same time, so we never understood anything we all said.. then we'd start screaming at each other for some strange and immature reason... then oniichan would shut us all up, then we'd have a happy ending... then we'd prolly have an epi, where only two people are playing and everyone else is keepin' quiet or being ignored... *sigh* okay, so maybe i sometimes feel 'alone' in the gang too. but damnit, not this much.. i've wasted too much saliva for not talking damnit. maybe i should leave....

nah.

i like my school.. for some reason i do not know. probably because it's near to a handful of restaurants and stuff...

who cares about the people here anyway? at least i know that i have jessie, oneechan, oniichan, kangsters, saku-chan and teh rest to keep me company for the rest of my goddamned life.

love ya guys. *muah!*

happy birtday to jason, btw! ^____^

bored, i guess...

Did nothing today, actually... Dunno, after all that slaving over my MP and my English Portfolio, i had nothing to do on a weekend, except for, well... um, lazing around... being a bum. hehe.

Anyway, um... yeah. i slept most of the time.. maybe because of that time... um, thursday, i slept at 4 am just completing my portfolio... Hehe... whuya..

Um, what else... oh yea... they put a limit to my internet time. only up to 11.30 pm. bah..

and i'm thinking of changing my layout once more... *shrug* the current layout is a total mess when viewed with something like 800x600 and less... *sigh*

and my exams are quite nearing... this thursday up to next week tuesday, then we come back on the 19th just to get our coursecards... *shudder* im kinda scared...

ooh, before i go... atch out for ishtah gay. *smile*

toodles

goddamned...

i was writing a looooooong post when my pc went nuts on me. damn pc... *kicks pc* stupid damned pc...

now i forgot that post... it was a nice post too... :( damn pc *kicks pc again and again*

in the meantime....

What's a meantime girl?


She's the one you call when you're bored because
she makes you laugh. She's
the one you talk to when you're feeling down
because she's willing to lend
an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you
call when you need a date to
your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing
with on a Saturday night.
She's the one you spend time with between
girlfriends, before you find "The
One". You know, the one who you keep around in
the meantime.

She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you
don't look at her as a
"real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough,
moody enough, or sexy enough
to be seen in that light. She's too laid-back,
too easily amused by the
same things your male buddies are amused by.
She's too understanding, too
comfortable. She doesn't make you feel nervous
or excited the way a "real"
woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny,
and attractive enough that
when you're lonely or horny and need intimate
female companionship, she'll
do just fine. You don't have to wine and dine her
because she knows the
real you already, and you don't have any facades
to keep up, no pretenses
to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of
substance out of her.
She's not easy, but you know that she cares about
you and is attracted to
you, and that she'll give you the intimacy you
need. And you know you don't
have to explain yourself or the situation, that
she'll be able to cope with
the fact that this isn't the beginning of a
relationship or that there's
any possibility that you have any real romantic
feelings for her. It won't
bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put
on your pants, say
goodbye, and go on a date with the woman you've
been mooning over for weeks
who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll
settle for a goodbye hug and
a promise to call her and tell her how the date
went. She's just so cool .
. . why can't all women be like that?!

But deep down, if you really think about it
(which you probably don't
because to you, the situation between the two of
you isn't important enough
to merit any real thought), you know that it's
really not fair. You know
that although she would never say it, it hurts
her to know that despite all
her good points and all the fun you two have, you
don't think she's good
enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's
mostly her fault, because
she doesn't have to give in to your needs. She
could play the hard-to-get
bitch like the rest of them do, if she really
wanted to. But you and she
both know that she probably couldn't pull it off.
Maybe she's too short, or
a little overweight, or has a big birthmark on
her forehead, or works at
Taco Bell, or just really not that type. Whatever
the reason, somehow life
has given her a lot of really great qualities but
has left out the ones
that men want (or think they want) in a woman.
So she remains forever the
funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret
lover, and you go on
searching for your goddess who will somehow be
everything you ever wanted
in a woman.

You'll joke to her that she should be the best
man at your wedding, and
she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly
rental tux.

She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or
open doors with her smile.
Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe.
She doesn't want to be the
center of attention and turn the heads of
everyone in the room. But she
wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be
special to someone, too. We
all do.

She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she
probably has a bigger and
better heart than any woman you've ever known
because she's had a front-row
seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes
you anyway. She obviously
sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you
because although you've
given her nothing, absolutely no reason to
still be around, she is.

Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. Been one more
times than I care to
admit. I don't know the reason, really, and at
this point I don't even
care. I just want to let every guy know who's
ever had the good fortune to
have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun,
but we cry, too. A lot.
And someday we won't be around.

And no, i didn't do that...

Whoever did write it, i know how you feel.

vampires are cool

Click here for more details. And i do mean, click here.

And i do mean it. click the above link or click the link on the um... left side of this page.

oooh my head... @_@

my head hurts... i think i've been staring at the computer monitor for hours already... @_@ damn mp!!!

heehee~


Depressed Anime Eyes : You dont smile alot and tend
to hang on your own. You know you can deal with
life, but not everyone else is so sure...



What are your anime eyes?
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You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.



What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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you are BLACK


What color Gel Maker are YOU!?!
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SELENE: You are selene!
Beautiful, vivacious,
fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would
destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by
the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene
is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite
Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the
Lycans extinct. This 127-year-old
"aggressive hunter of the underworld"
combines a mastery of ancient weaponry with
modern pleasures, such as driving Jaguars and
using computers. However, Selene's ambitions
are suppressed by Kraven. She longs for
Viktor's reawakening so that he becomes the
Vampire's regent once again.

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you could be a vampire?
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Which UNDERWORLD character are you?
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ps: hapi bday daph-chan~ ^__^ go ReiN-sama~ ^___^

oh joy!

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

it's around eight in the morning, and a few minutes ago, i think my day started with a really nice beginning. :D

Okay, so here we are at the /crappy/ linux lab, where the screen resolutions are 400x800 or something like that, and the browser hates my blogsite, and where most of my class dominates the lab, and shit like that... Ta-kun* decided to grab something to eat before finishing with their MP's, cause thiers is supposed to be passed today, and mine is supposed to be passed next week friday. Vanyel and I tagged along.. So there, we were at Agno.. Ta-kun bought his food, i bought a cookie, vanyel didn't buy anything...

But here's the thing.. Ta-kun and I were eating... An' then Vanyel hugged me from behind and rested his head on me shoulder...

uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ =___=

Ta-kuuuuun~

Arigatou gozaimasu~!!! XD

till next post!

~toodles

*not his real name
** but then again, who cares about my life? or his? or his? or yours? or anyone elses?
***why am i even bothering to writhe THAT in my blog??! why am i even ranting about him?!?! O_o

i am strange.

oh the torture!!

Agh! @__@

College is torture. i mean, i-- WE have been running around four floors all day, staying at school until the closing hours just being in the lab finishing out machine projects, staying up until the sun starts to peek out from the goshdarned sky, get to school before eight in the morn and do more school work!!! X_x

It'd be a miracle if we live until christmas... X_x

dang... X_x i wish there was an easier way to do mp's... *sigh*

nekoooooo~


You are a kawaii Neko! You're not very bright, and
naive, but thats what makes you so damn cute!
No one can stay mad at you. =n_n=


What Kind of Anime Neko Are You?
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QUIZ TIME!


You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.


What feeling do you represent?
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/* Awww... */


Your anime hair color is green.


What is your anime hair color?
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/* Green...? Isn't that supposed to be the color of my MIND? not my hair? */

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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/* Wow, and they said my inner child was 5... */


You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."

Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.

As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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/* Oohh... phoenix... */

Driretlan is your Vampire name.
You are a witty Vampire with a certain style that
others are drawn to.
To use your new Vampire name and become a Vampire,
go here:
www.life-blood.vze.com


What is your Vampire name?
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/* What? No pics? */


goddess of the moon. You stand for love and
wisdom.You are light up the night sky


What beutiful goddess are you?(with anime pics!)
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/* gee, what grammar! */


Uh-oh - you are "Stop blowing holes in my
ship!" You're a little bit edgy,
honestly, and it's getting in the way of your
natural charm. We understand that life can be
hard, but take a deep breath and have a drink.
Relax.


Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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/* Cap'n Jack Sparrow is COOL */

Seems like you are not in big trouble. Actually,
this result is actually BETTER than average.
You will have a perfect job. You will make a
lot of money. The job that you will have is
being a kind of doctor. You will not marry.
Many (wo)men will like you or did like you in
your college, but you don't think anybody is
good enough for you. You will live in a
two-story house when you are older. Two stories
all for you is good enough for you! You will
have many dinners in your house. The bad news
is that you will be very lonely and sad -
perhaps almost depressed when you are older.
Yes, you will think that money is not
everything in your life. Feel good young man.
You will not bald /*_*\ Your hair will be the
same as it is right now. You will feel that you
are one of the prettiest/handsome (wo)man there
is for your age /*_*\ You will be the over
average (wo)man. In your future, nothing will
hurt you. Only pain on the outside. When you
are 87 years old, you will die of painful
cancer.


The Quiz of Luck - What Will Happen In Your Future?
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/* So... is that good or bad, doc? */


Who are you? No one would even know your name or
who you are. No one may even know what you
really look like. You would be known by a
series of names since you would go under many
aliases and have a number of disguises. You are
very clever and creative, and would almost
always be one step ahead of the authorities.
You would make sure no evidence of your
horrible murders would be left behind, and if
it is, no one would know it was you. You
sneaky, elusive person...authorities would have
hard time trying to catch you. You would
definitely be the mystery criminal. People may
not even know the your killings are all from
you. You would really be a threat to the
public.


What Would Your Serial Killer Name Be? What Would the Public Know You As?
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/* reminds me of the movie, Catch Me If You Can */


<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )
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/* angel, eh...? */


Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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/* I am a hopeless romantic... T.T */


You are Neo, from "The Matrix." You
display a perfect fusion of heroism and
compassion.


What Matrix Persona Are You?
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/* Myk is NOT the one :D */


A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.
EXTRA: Your personality type is the only one on
this quiz that would enjoy www.life-
blood.vze.com Check it out!


What kind of girl are you?
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/* does this mean i get to have a ps2 for christmas? */

Whuya

I'm considering this: leaving blog*spot for a new bloghost that supports pictures. You know, one that lets you upload piccies and stuff... *shrug* so that i dont have to link the piccies from my other site... which is kinda hard... If you guys know a nice place, tell me. =3

Anyways, kinda boring start for the day... found out that we didn't have practice the minute i stepped in teh classroom... so i get to go home early! ^___^ joy!

Maybe I should go play ragnarok once i get home... i mean, it's been an extremely long time since i played it... maybe that, or i'll just go do my MP.. yeah,t hat'd be better. I'd get to submit it on time, too...

OOh, yeah. i got my pc fixed!! It got infected by this darned worm my brother let in when he was checking mail. damn him. anyways, i got it fixed and i got all my files intact. :D Hee hee.

that's it for now, i guess...

~toodles!

ps: sorry val~ ^_____^;;;

Yargh.

Why is it so hard to fall out of love? A friend of mine says that falling in love is like tripping and falling into a damned well, where the well either leads to wonderland, or a bottom filled with spikes, poison, rats and snakes. or something like that. He also says that the deeper you fall in, the harder it is to get out.

Damn. Pucha, ang hirap talaga.

Don't we get something like a parachute? or even better, a grappling hook? so that if ever we don't like what we find down there, we can always get back out easily... Free will. If we have free will in deciding which specialization we want to have, then so should we have free will in falling in or out of love. I think it's fair. Don't you?

but then you'd argue that i cant fight my emotions, blahdiblahdiblah. I dont give a fucking damn. I want out, and i want out NOW. who cares that that person might be the one. Clearly he ain't. And i don't think he would ever be.

Damn..

I hate it. I hate it already... Why is it that when you want to let go, you just can't and then you go back to step one of the love chain? it fuckin' stinks.

*sigh*

I wonder what oniichan would say...?

Oh bah.

It's one of those darned teen angst episodes. WHY oh WHY am i getting this late?? argh! it's getting on my nerves, and it this doesn't stop, i don't know what i'd do to that person. *sigh*

i guess that's it...

~toodles

p.s. i miss you oniichan!!!

New Layout!

In case you guys haven't noticed, i've got a new layout and it's all thanks to Totally Chibi!!! ^___^ See? I've mentioned them lotsatimes now... ^__^ I love their site... ^^ although, right now, they're totally pink, which hurts my eyes, but it's okay!

I've had a hard time making my blog look like this.. at first, i wanted to host this at some site *coughgeocitiescough* but it hates me, so well, i'm back here. ^_____^

This layout features a screencap of Loki-sama. ^__^ Mantatei Loki Ragnarok rules. ^_____^

Anyway, enjoy my new layout!

~toodles

p.s.
THANKYOU TOTALLY CHIBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!