FRUSTRATED
listening to: Sister Princess - Maboroshi
wishes for: priority downloads for Shinchaos. All the time.
fuckingdhemmet!!!!!!!!!!!!1 *shakes fist* This sucks!!! >.< As soon as I logged on mIRC today, I was number one at Shinchaos' queue list with a 3/5 priority 'cause I'm a regular and voiced, and with only three hours left to wait to get my first ever BL game (Shounentachi no Byoutou -- the one with the really nummy smex scenes in hospital wards.. mmm..). That's good right? Right. Three hours pass by and I get download it. I was extremely happy. I cancelled all other downloads and closed all programs just so the transfer would be faster. And then guess what? Fifteen percent into the download, approximately one hour, my pc decides to fucking hang.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
>.< I hate you Jimmy. I swear, when I get my laptop, I am so gonna make fun of you, you damned machine you! >.<
the rantings of an nineteen year-old fangirl regarding games, anime, love, life, the universe and everything she lays her eyes on... and what she hears, too. may contain profanity. ...you have been warned.
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
lackage of inspiration
listening to: The Scanty - Rock 'n Roll Princess
wishes for: inspiration. or more sleep. whichever comes first.
The neko has finally lost all her inspiration to write or draw. Is it because ofthe impending doom course card day? Maybe. Is it because it's been weeks since the neko last talked to her? Maybe. Or both? Most probably.
I need chocolates. And cake. And ice cream. And more animanga stuff. Yess... Those are the best ingredients for inspiration.. Mm..
listening to: The Scanty - Rock 'n Roll Princess
wishes for: inspiration. or more sleep. whichever comes first.
The neko has finally lost all her inspiration to write or draw. Is it because of
I need chocolates. And cake. And ice cream. And more animanga stuff. Yess... Those are the best ingredients for inspiration.. Mm..
Monday, August 30, 2004
try other channels? ^_~:: dami dyan -irc.y-hosting.net try here kso onti lang tau d2 but there glad to help.
Oh i forgot イチャイチャパラダイス ヘルプ meron me *_* and im still playing it.
yaoi games = BL-game
DeepRoute | Homepage | 08.23.04 - 3:51 am | #
DeepRoute-san? Who are you? And which channels do i go to at irc.y-hosting.net? ^^;;; Thanks for suggesting that nga pala. ^^
Oh i forgot イチャイチャパラダイス ヘルプ meron me *_* and im still playing it.
yaoi games = BL-game
DeepRoute | Homepage | 08.23.04 - 3:51 am | #
DeepRoute-san? Who are you? And which channels do i go to at irc.y-hosting.net? ^^;;; Thanks for suggesting that nga pala. ^^
I'm back! *expecting loud cheers but gets crickets chirping*
listening to: Hysteric Blue - Candy
wishes for: someone to take me away from here... preferably her.
Okay, something's wrong with this keyboard. I cant type properly anymore... That or my hand's gone and grew a little bigger. O_o
Or it's because i haven't used the computer for three days straight. O__O
And OMG, i posted two quiz posts one after the other!!!!!!! What have I done?! I can't believe myself, not posting anything but quiz results. >.< What's happening to mee??? Have I lost the will to rant?! *gasp* Nooooooo...!!!! *sobs* An' I keep losing inspiration to write, too. I can't write a decent reply to rpg's anymore *sobs* (That's with DesCha aside.. 'Cause DesCha's special.)
What am I gonna do? I'm supposed to be writing the scripts for Red Moon Murders!!! >0< I have the fixed plot already, tho. At least I have that. ^^;;
Ooohh, Kyou Kara Maou ep16 is subbed and out! *glomps AnimeOne* xD Yaaaaaaaaaaay~~ *runs off to go download the raws for episode 17*
...Feh. Only three hours of being awake and I'm bored already. >.> This bites. And it's supposed to be our vacation!!! >.< Sucky vacation this turns out to be.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaanyways, here's what has been happenin to me:
Went karaoke-ing with Val, Anne, Ajong and Ross last thursday. It was uber fun!! Ross! I'll pay you back that fifty! I swear!! And Val! I have to have a copy of that pic!! Okie? ^^ Okie!
Friday was the last day I got to see Kinji-san and Yutaka-san. Yutaka caught me staring at him. Dreamily. Ack..!! >.< That was awful! >.<
Saturday I was mallhopping! Whee! First stop, I was at Galle where Khan, me and Creole watched The Stepford Wives. Really good movie. Nicole Kidman was just so pretty... *w* ANd after, we passed by MegaMall and tehn ended up at Shang where Khan and I played Dance Maniax. Mm.. After that I went straight to G4 tohave free food celebrate Eunice's birthday. Whee! Sushi!! Whoo~~ ^^ We were at Timezone until around 11, and then Cholo took me home. Thanks Cholo! Ooh, speaking of Cholo, he was the night's Tarsier boy and we picked on him 'cause he was wearing shorts. xD Ooooh yeah.
Sunday I slept the whole day. o___o no really I did. Except I woke up in the evening, and then Ate Ouine suddenly came by so my plans of going online went poof. But we had a really nice talk about Lord of the Rings, which was showing on HBO. She left past eleven. And then I watched Cowboy Bebop. It rules. It was so awsome!! It really is!! Spike is cool! So was Vincent. I watched the dubbed one last night on Creole and Khan's suggestion. ^^; Will watch the Subbed version after breakfast.
Yes, breakfast. I haven't eaten anything yet.
Oooooooooooooooh.... Lookie~ long post! Yay! ^^ But I'm hungry, so I hafta go. ^^;
toodles~
listening to: Hysteric Blue - Candy
wishes for: someone to take me away from here... preferably her.
Okay, something's wrong with this keyboard. I cant type properly anymore... That or my hand's gone and grew a little bigger. O_o
Or it's because i haven't used the computer for three days straight. O__O
And OMG, i posted two quiz posts one after the other!!!!!!! What have I done?! I can't believe myself, not posting anything but quiz results. >.< What's happening to mee??? Have I lost the will to rant?! *gasp* Nooooooo...!!!! *sobs* An' I keep losing inspiration to write, too. I can't write a decent reply to rpg's anymore *sobs* (That's with DesCha aside.. 'Cause DesCha's special.)
What am I gonna do? I'm supposed to be writing the scripts for Red Moon Murders!!! >0< I have the fixed plot already, tho. At least I have that. ^^;;
Ooohh, Kyou Kara Maou ep16 is subbed and out! *glomps AnimeOne* xD Yaaaaaaaaaaay~~ *runs off to go download the raws for episode 17*
...Feh. Only three hours of being awake and I'm bored already. >.> This bites. And it's supposed to be our vacation!!! >.< Sucky vacation this turns out to be.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaanyways, here's what has been happenin to me:
Went karaoke-ing with Val, Anne, Ajong and Ross last thursday. It was uber fun!! Ross! I'll pay you back that fifty! I swear!! And Val! I have to have a copy of that pic!! Okie? ^^ Okie!
Friday was the last day I got to see Kinji-san and Yutaka-san. Yutaka caught me staring at him. Dreamily. Ack..!! >.< That was awful! >.<
Saturday I was mallhopping! Whee! First stop, I was at Galle where Khan, me and Creole watched The Stepford Wives. Really good movie. Nicole Kidman was just so pretty... *w* ANd after, we passed by MegaMall and tehn ended up at Shang where Khan and I played Dance Maniax. Mm.. After that I went straight to G4 to
Sunday I slept the whole day. o___o no really I did. Except I woke up in the evening, and then Ate Ouine suddenly came by so my plans of going online went poof. But we had a really nice talk about Lord of the Rings, which was showing on HBO. She left past eleven. And then I watched Cowboy Bebop. It rules. It was so awsome!! It really is!! Spike is cool! So was Vincent. I watched the dubbed one last night on Creole and Khan's suggestion. ^^; Will watch the Subbed version after breakfast.
Yes, breakfast. I haven't eaten anything yet.
Oooooooooooooooh.... Lookie~ long post! Yay! ^^ But I'm hungry, so I hafta go. ^^;
toodles~
Friday, August 27, 2004
ripped off. again.
listening to: Fruits Basket - Chiisana Inori
wishes for: no more work *sob*
Find your Role-Playing
Stereotype at mutedfaith.com.
You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.
What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Industrial rock! Just like Marilyn Manson, you
know what you have to say and you just say it!
I like you very much...just be careful you
don't scare me away...
What genre of rock are you?
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Was also supposed to type up a rant last night, but i forgot what about. O_o
listening to: Fruits Basket - Chiisana Inori
wishes for: no more work *sob*
Find your Role-Playing
Stereotype at mutedfaith.com.
You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like Diamonds in the Rough.
What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
brought to you by Quizilla
Industrial rock! Just like Marilyn Manson, you
know what you have to say and you just say it!
I like you very much...just be careful you
don't scare me away...
What genre of rock are you?
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Was also supposed to type up a rant last night, but i forgot what about. O_o
Monday, August 23, 2004
bored, oh so fucking bored
litening to: lab silence
wishes for: chocolates! lots of goddamned chocolates, demmet!!
Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
rate my quiz, I think your voice in just
beautiful?
What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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You are the Strange Creature that fell from the
sky. You are not understood and are careful in
any kind of realtionship. You have peculer ways
and thoughts. You are quiet but present. I like
weird people, rate my quiz.
What kind of element fey are you? (PRETTY PICS)
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Your: Cool kitten. Your super cool, cute and
popular. your sweet on the guys and totally
into fashion. You are naturally a perfectionist
and are very artisitc.
What kind of cat are you?
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You are: Yellow Crayon
What color crayon are you?
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borderline
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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litening to: lab silence
wishes for: chocolates! lots of goddamned chocolates, demmet!!
Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
You are a Siren. More adventurous than all with a
voice like no other you sit on warm rocks and
sing to the moon and sea. Yet sometimes
shipwrecks find you and raving men want you.
You are a bottle of talent and power. What the
unknown is you seek to find, and a lover. You
have the moon and stars as freinds. There are a
very few of you, what a rare find. Will you
rate my quiz, I think your voice in just
beautiful?
What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
You are the Strange Creature that fell from the
sky. You are not understood and are careful in
any kind of realtionship. You have peculer ways
and thoughts. You are quiet but present. I like
weird people, rate my quiz.
What kind of element fey are you? (PRETTY PICS)
brought to you by Quizilla
Your: Cool kitten. Your super cool, cute and
popular. your sweet on the guys and totally
into fashion. You are naturally a perfectionist
and are very artisitc.
What kind of cat are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
You are: Yellow Crayon
What color crayon are you?
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borderline
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Sunday, August 22, 2004
Three things that...
litening to: Okazaki Ritsuko - For Fruits basket
wishes for: her safe trip ^^
...you never knew about Rika:
1. I like shota *w*
2. I sucked my thumb until I was in 4th grade *runs and hides*
3. I have a relationship with my pillow OwO *hugs Mr. Kamui pillow*
...Rika does when waking up:
1. Go back to sleep
2. Try to go back to sleep and forget about going to school
3. When all else, fails, try draging my ass off the bed and take a goddamned bath.
...Rika likes best:
1. Shounen-Ai
2. Her
3. Chocolates
...you'll catch Rika doing:
1. Drawing
2. Sleeping
3. Online
...Rika listens to everyday:
1. My mp3 collection
2. My fingers tapping on the keyboard
3. My grandmother nagging at me to go to sleep because it's 2 in the morning and I'm still online. ^^;
...you'll never catch Rika doing:
1. Run around naked singing "I have a lovely bunch of coconuts...."
2. Making a shrine for Barney, the fucking purple dinosaur
3. Pass a math exam TT^TT
...Rika wants to be when he/she grows up:
1. Mangaka
2. Professional Slacker
3. Kicker of Bill Gates Arse
...you might want to give Rika this Christmas:
1. Shounen ai/Yaoi manga
2. Elegant Goth/Loligoth dresses. Note the plural tense.
3. Anime OSTs
Haha. I got bored. ^^;
litening to: Okazaki Ritsuko - For Fruits basket
wishes for: her safe trip ^^
...you never knew about Rika:
1. I like shota *w*
2. I sucked my thumb until I was in 4th grade *runs and hides*
3. I have a relationship with my pillow OwO *hugs Mr. Kamui pillow*
...Rika does when waking up:
1. Go back to sleep
2. Try to go back to sleep and forget about going to school
3. When all else, fails, try draging my ass off the bed and take a goddamned bath.
...Rika likes best:
1. Shounen-Ai
2. Her
3. Chocolates
...you'll catch Rika doing:
1. Drawing
2. Sleeping
3. Online
...Rika listens to everyday:
1. My mp3 collection
2. My fingers tapping on the keyboard
3. My grandmother nagging at me to go to sleep because it's 2 in the morning and I'm still online. ^^;
...you'll never catch Rika doing:
1. Run around naked singing "I have a lovely bunch of coconuts...."
2. Making a shrine for Barney, the fucking purple dinosaur
3. Pass a math exam TT^TT
...Rika wants to be when he/she grows up:
1. Mangaka
2. Professional Slacker
3. Kicker of Bill Gates Arse
...you might want to give Rika this Christmas:
1. Shounen ai/Yaoi manga
2. Elegant Goth/Loligoth dresses. Note the plural tense.
3. Anime OSTs
Haha. I got bored. ^^;
Friday, August 20, 2004
Good Mooooooooooooooooooooooorning!
listening to: Apocripha/0 - Blue Tail in the Cross Track 7 - Beryl and Seles
wishes for: yaoi smut
...I can't read gravitation remix volume 1 at school. You know, the one where Yuki and Shuichi do it in the recording sutdio and Sakano and Hiro happened to er... pass by. ^^; Tohma rules the world indeed. ^^
But!! I need my yaoi smut or else I don't think I'll be able to work properly. i'm supposed to be doing a flash animation for multmed which will be passed TONIGHT. frecking demmet. >.<#
AghIfeckingneedtoseetwomenscreweachothersilly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why can't we have yaoi games?! It's so fecking unfair that stores sell H-games, but you'll never get to see yaoi games!!! THIS IS UNFAIR!!! *sobsobsob*
Feck.
Ooh. Val and I are gonna make a yaoi rp blog thingy. x3 Anyone interested in joining should leave a note here. ^^ *smoochies*
Toodles~
listening to: Apocripha/0 - Blue Tail in the Cross Track 7 - Beryl and Seles
wishes for: yaoi smut
...I can't read gravitation remix volume 1 at school. You know, the one where Yuki and Shuichi do it in the recording sutdio and Sakano and Hiro happened to er... pass by. ^^; Tohma rules the world indeed. ^^
But!! I need my yaoi smut or else I don't think I'll be able to work properly. i'm supposed to be doing a flash animation for multmed which will be passed TONIGHT. frecking demmet. >.<#
AghIfeckingneedtoseetwomenscreweachothersilly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why can't we have yaoi games?! It's so fecking unfair that stores sell H-games, but you'll never get to see yaoi games!!! THIS IS UNFAIR!!! *sobsobsob*
Feck.
Ooh. Val and I are gonna make a yaoi rp blog thingy. x3 Anyone interested in joining should leave a note here. ^^ *smoochies*
Toodles~
Monday, August 16, 2004
Update! W00t!
listening to: gox lobby noises
wishes for: *blush* aah... *blush*
Oh-kay.. strange, frustraing and god-awful stuff have been happening in DesCha lately. Rika is such a frustrated mum, and she doesn't want to be ever mad at Hideki. *sobs* And Rika doesn't know what to do.. And then she learns that she's part Lalaika.. T3h GM gave some long info about it and they're basically a genetically enhanced human race of sorts that live with smilers. And that she's some sort of "chosen one". M3h. Oh, and her son's involved in an incestuous relationship with his slut of a cousin. *stabs Maya* Damn bi0tch.
Anyways, enough of the descha update. Ph3h. *stabs Maya again* Grr.
ENOUGH, i said. >.>
Graduated from ROTC last Saturday! Yay! And I met Artoo who looks like Hades without the CutesyWootsey Jpop habits. Nyaha. xD Played more Para para paradise and Dance Maniax wiff Creole. Saw kael again. Met cute guy who looks like aki who turns out to be parlor gay who smokes who isn't that cute in reality 'cause his smile sucks and he's just the wrong kind of gay demmet. >.<## Fecking hell.
I dun wanna fail Anmath1. Again. And Compro2. *sobs* Those are the two subjects that are kinda.. err.. in danger.. Not worried about multmed 'cause it fucking sucks. 'Sides, I'm sure I'd only get a 1.0 there. Feckingprofessorsuckstohighfeckinghell.
Gakuen Heaven = Fucking Heaven. *giggles like mad*
Loveless is just so lurvely. And Gravitation Remix is HAWT!! xD Yuki and Shuichi were just so adorably fucking sexay!! Literally!! *giggles like mad*
Hmm.. what else.. Mikey-poo mentioned me in his bloggie. Amaygad, I was just so oblivious. xD I didn't even notice he had this frickin crush on me on our 1st term in our 1st year. XD Amayfeckingad! *giggles like mad*
That's it I guess.. Oh, and I wish she wuffs meh. *w* *dreamy sigh* I really really wish so.. ^^ I know I wuff her soo mush. ^//////////////////^
toodles~~
PS
ROSS HAS A FECKING NEW HAIRCUT!! It looks good on him demmet!! x3
listening to: gox lobby noises
wishes for: *blush* aah... *blush*
Oh-kay.. strange, frustraing and god-awful stuff have been happening in DesCha lately. Rika is such a frustrated mum, and she doesn't want to be ever mad at Hideki. *sobs* And Rika doesn't know what to do.. And then she learns that she's part Lalaika.. T3h GM gave some long info about it and they're basically a genetically enhanced human race of sorts that live with smilers. And that she's some sort of "chosen one". M3h. Oh, and her son's involved in an incestuous relationship with his slut of a cousin. *stabs Maya* Damn bi0tch.
Anyways, enough of the descha update. Ph3h. *stabs Maya again* Grr.
ENOUGH, i said. >.>
Graduated from ROTC last Saturday! Yay! And I met Artoo who looks like Hades without the CutesyWootsey Jpop habits. Nyaha. xD Played more Para para paradise and Dance Maniax wiff Creole. Saw kael again. Met cute guy who looks like aki who turns out to be parlor gay who smokes who isn't that cute in reality 'cause his smile sucks and he's just the wrong kind of gay demmet. >.<## Fecking hell.
I dun wanna fail Anmath1. Again. And Compro2. *sobs* Those are the two subjects that are kinda.. err.. in danger.. Not worried about multmed 'cause it fucking sucks. 'Sides, I'm sure I'd only get a 1.0 there. Feckingprofessorsuckstohighfeckinghell.
Gakuen Heaven = Fucking Heaven. *giggles like mad*
Loveless is just so lurvely. And Gravitation Remix is HAWT!! xD Yuki and Shuichi were just so adorably fucking sexay!! Literally!! *giggles like mad*
Hmm.. what else.. Mikey-poo mentioned me in his bloggie. Amaygad, I was just so oblivious. xD I didn't even notice he had this frickin crush on me on our 1st term in our 1st year. XD Amayfeckingad! *giggles like mad*
That's it I guess.. Oh, and I wish she wuffs meh. *w* *dreamy sigh* I really really wish so.. ^^ I know I wuff her soo mush. ^//////////////////^
toodles~~
PS
ROSS HAS A FECKING NEW HAIRCUT!! It looks good on him demmet!! x3
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
ripped off. again.
listening to: my tortured soul angst about *bleeeeeeeeeeeeeep*
wishes for: Yutaka. *drool*
Met the Japanese students today. Kinji-kun is t3h fun. Yutaka is t3h bish. Will be taking Kinji-kun to Greenbelt tomorrow. Hopefully, I'd get back before my compro exam. Which i have yet to study. My MP is not yet done. Mwaha. I hate my life.
*sulks in a corner*
Your Motions
[ Current Clothes ] yellow shirt with pink print over black long sleeved top, wide bottomed denims and sneaks
[ Current Mood ] angsty.
[ Current Music ] Malice Mizer - Regret
[ Current Taste ] KFC HotShots drowning in gravy
[ Current Make-up ] What's... "make-up"?
[ Current Hair ] shoulder length hair, now wiff spiffy bangs, half pony
[ Current Annoyance ] my foot is itchy. it's ruining my angst
[ Current Smell ] city streets
[ Current Favorite Artist ] *stares at yew blankly*
[ Current Desktop Picture ] Kamui being angstu
[ Current Favorite Group(s) ] The Stand Up, AnimeOne.
[ Current Book you're reading ] *still* the Da Vinci Code. The Files reviewer doesn't count
[ Current CD in CD Player] Gravitation Vocal Collection
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] Toenail color
[ Current Refreshment ] I NEED COFFEE
[ Current Worry ] *sobs like there's no tomorrow*
LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] creole
[ You Talked to ] creole
[ You Hugged ] creole
[ You Instant messaged ] oniichan
[ You Yelled At ] my stupidity
[ You Kissed ] mr. kamui pillow. because i am sad and desperate and mr. kamui pillow is the bestest friend i have. *sniff*
FAVORITE...
[ Food ] chokoreeto ga suki desu! daisuki desu! -Kinji-kun
[ Drink ] rootbeer. sarsi forever.
[ Color ] black
[ Album ] X Single collection
[ Shoes ] my sketchers retros
[ Candy ] bubblegum
[ Animal ] aa.. neko daisuki desu! -Kinji-kun
[ TV Show ] Kyou Kara Maou!
[ Movie ] Loser
[ Dance ] Deluxe Eurobeat mix, Butterfly, Mobo Moga, Aishiattemasu?, Ale` Japan, 100
[ Song ] Crucify My Love
[ Vegetable ] Potatos
[ Fruit ] Strawberries, Watermelon, apple
[ Cartoon ] ANIME
ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] in anything except math and physics
[ Open-minded ] very much so.
[ Arrogant ] it depends
[ Insecure ] yes
[ Interesting ] i get boring after a while
[ Random ] rabbit?
[ Friendly ] *smile*
[ Smart ] Trust me, I'm about to fail compro2 and anmath1 again.
[ Moody ] Very.
[ Childish ] I'm a five year old trapped in an eighteen year old's body
[ Independent ] err..
[ Hard working ] never
[ Organized ] i dont clean my room.
[ Healthy ] i hope not
[ Emotionally Stable ] no.
[ Shy ] depends
[ Difficult ] huh?
[ Attractive ] hah.
[ Bored Easily ] yes. all the time.
[ Messy ] like i said. i don't clean my room
[ Thirsty ] uh huh
[ Responsible ] *raises eyebrow*
[ Obsessed ] yes.
[ Angry ] with myself.
[ Sad ] duh.
[ Happy ] no.
[ Hyper ] was.
[ Trusting ] depends on who you are and what you are to me.
[ Talkative ] not much anymore.
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Kill ] me.
[ Slap ] my mom, my grandma, basically anyone who wants me to be a mindless drone
[ Get Really Wasted With ] creole and kang
[ Get High With ] deschakada
[ Look Like ] Lhodo.
[ Talk To Offline ] deschakada.
[ Talk To Online ] her, deschakada, s19
[ My Name Is ] rika
[ In The Morning I Am ] never usually awake
[ All I Need Is ] her
[ Love Is ] killing me
[ I'm Afraid of ] love
[ I Dream About ] strange, idealistic and hopeless romantic shit
HAVE YOU EVER...
[ Pictured your crush naked? ] no comment
[ Actually seen ur crush naked ] no comment
[ Been in love ] so deep it hurts
[ Cried when someone died ] ........
[ Lied ] no.
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
[what do u notice first?] eyes
[last person u slow danced with] arred
[worst question to ask] ........
WHO...
[makes u laugh the most?] Creole
[makes you smile] deschakada, her, val, ross
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] her
[who do you have a crush on?] her
[who has a crush on u?] how the fuck should i know
[is easiest to talk to] creole
DO YOU EVER...
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] yes.
[save aol/aim conversations] i don't have aim
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] lotsa times
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yesh
HAVE YOU EVER....
[fallen for your best friend] no
[been rejected] no
[rejected someone] yes
[used someone] no comment
[been cheated on] how the hell should i know?
[done something you regret] duh
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON..
[you talked to on the phone] creole
[you laughed with] creole
[you said goodbye to] creole
DO YOU // ARE YOU...
[smoke cigarettes] it would kill me if i did
[obsessive] very much so
[could u live without the computer?] the computer is my life
[color ur hair] no. i want to.
[ever get off the damn computer] when they force me to.
[habla espanol] no intiende
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] 148 and counting
[drink alchohol?] no one will let me.
[like watching sunrises or sunset] ........
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] emotional. i angst a lot.
NUMBER...
of times I have had my heart broken?: i can't count.
of hearts I have broken?: two.
of guys I have kissed?: two.
of girls I have kissed?: on the cheek? lots.
of continents I have lived in?: one
of tight friends?: 6
of cd's that I own?: can't count
of scars on my body?: lots on my legs and knees. battlescars from when i was a kid
of things in my past that I regret?: lots
I KNOW: something you don't know
I WANT: that person to love me
I HAVE: a very big problem
I WISH: i was dead
I HATE: my life
I MISS: my old self
I FEAR: love
I HEAR: my tortured soul
I WONDER: if that person will ever love me back..
I REGRET: fuck you.
I LOVE: of course i do.
I ACHE: my tummy does. that's why i have medicines for that
I CARE: not
I ALWAYS: try to smile even when i don't want to
I AM NOT: not a hopeless romantic
I DANCE: in my dreams
I SING: jpop
I CRY: every night
I DO NOT ALWAYS: get so fucking obsessed like this
listening to: my tortured soul angst about *bleeeeeeeeeeeeeep*
wishes for: Yutaka. *drool*
Met the Japanese students today. Kinji-kun is t3h fun. Yutaka is t3h bish. Will be taking Kinji-kun to Greenbelt tomorrow. Hopefully, I'd get back before my compro exam. Which i have yet to study. My MP is not yet done. Mwaha. I hate my life.
*sulks in a corner*
Your Motions
[ Current Clothes ] yellow shirt with pink print over black long sleeved top, wide bottomed denims and sneaks
[ Current Mood ] angsty.
[ Current Music ] Malice Mizer - Regret
[ Current Taste ] KFC HotShots drowning in gravy
[ Current Make-up ] What's... "make-up"?
[ Current Hair ] shoulder length hair, now wiff spiffy bangs, half pony
[ Current Annoyance ] my foot is itchy. it's ruining my angst
[ Current Smell ] city streets
[ Current Favorite Artist ] *stares at yew blankly*
[ Current Desktop Picture ] Kamui being angstu
[ Current Favorite Group(s) ] The Stand Up, AnimeOne.
[ Current Book you're reading ] *still* the Da Vinci Code. The Files reviewer doesn't count
[ Current CD in CD Player] Gravitation Vocal Collection
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] Toenail color
[ Current Refreshment ] I NEED COFFEE
[ Current Worry ] *sobs like there's no tomorrow*
LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] creole
[ You Talked to ] creole
[ You Hugged ] creole
[ You Instant messaged ] oniichan
[ You Yelled At ] my stupidity
[ You Kissed ] mr. kamui pillow. because i am sad and desperate and mr. kamui pillow is the bestest friend i have. *sniff*
FAVORITE...
[ Food ] chokoreeto ga suki desu! daisuki desu! -Kinji-kun
[ Drink ] rootbeer. sarsi forever.
[ Color ] black
[ Album ] X Single collection
[ Shoes ] my sketchers retros
[ Candy ] bubblegum
[ Animal ] aa.. neko daisuki desu! -Kinji-kun
[ TV Show ] Kyou Kara Maou!
[ Movie ] Loser
[ Dance ] Deluxe Eurobeat mix, Butterfly, Mobo Moga, Aishiattemasu?, Ale` Japan, 100
[ Song ] Crucify My Love
[ Vegetable ] Potatos
[ Fruit ] Strawberries, Watermelon, apple
[ Cartoon ] ANIME
ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] in anything except math and physics
[ Open-minded ] very much so.
[ Arrogant ] it depends
[ Insecure ] yes
[ Interesting ] i get boring after a while
[ Random ] rabbit?
[ Friendly ] *smile*
[ Smart ] Trust me, I'm about to fail compro2 and anmath1 again.
[ Moody ] Very.
[ Childish ] I'm a five year old trapped in an eighteen year old's body
[ Independent ] err..
[ Hard working ] never
[ Organized ] i dont clean my room.
[ Healthy ] i hope not
[ Emotionally Stable ] no.
[ Shy ] depends
[ Difficult ] huh?
[ Attractive ] hah.
[ Bored Easily ] yes. all the time.
[ Messy ] like i said. i don't clean my room
[ Thirsty ] uh huh
[ Responsible ] *raises eyebrow*
[ Obsessed ] yes.
[ Angry ] with myself.
[ Sad ] duh.
[ Happy ] no.
[ Hyper ] was.
[ Trusting ] depends on who you are and what you are to me.
[ Talkative ] not much anymore.
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Kill ] me.
[ Slap ] my mom, my grandma, basically anyone who wants me to be a mindless drone
[ Get Really Wasted With ] creole and kang
[ Get High With ] deschakada
[ Look Like ] Lhodo.
[ Talk To Offline ] deschakada.
[ Talk To Online ] her, deschakada, s19
[ My Name Is ] rika
[ In The Morning I Am ] never usually awake
[ All I Need Is ] her
[ Love Is ] killing me
[ I'm Afraid of ] love
[ I Dream About ] strange, idealistic and hopeless romantic shit
HAVE YOU EVER...
[ Pictured your crush naked? ] no comment
[ Actually seen ur crush naked ] no comment
[ Been in love ] so deep it hurts
[ Cried when someone died ] ........
[ Lied ] no.
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...
[what do u notice first?] eyes
[last person u slow danced with] arred
[worst question to ask] ........
WHO...
[makes u laugh the most?] Creole
[makes you smile] deschakada, her, val, ross
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] her
[who do you have a crush on?] her
[who has a crush on u?] how the fuck should i know
[is easiest to talk to] creole
DO YOU EVER...
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] yes.
[save aol/aim conversations] i don't have aim
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] lotsa times
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yesh
HAVE YOU EVER....
[fallen for your best friend] no
[been rejected] no
[rejected someone] yes
[used someone] no comment
[been cheated on] how the hell should i know?
[done something you regret] duh
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON..
[you talked to on the phone] creole
[you laughed with] creole
[you said goodbye to] creole
DO YOU // ARE YOU...
[smoke cigarettes] it would kill me if i did
[obsessive] very much so
[could u live without the computer?] the computer is my life
[color ur hair] no. i want to.
[ever get off the damn computer] when they force me to.
[habla espanol] no intiende
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] 148 and counting
[drink alchohol?] no one will let me.
[like watching sunrises or sunset] ........
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] emotional. i angst a lot.
NUMBER...
of times I have had my heart broken?: i can't count.
of hearts I have broken?: two.
of guys I have kissed?: two.
of girls I have kissed?: on the cheek? lots.
of continents I have lived in?: one
of tight friends?: 6
of cd's that I own?: can't count
of scars on my body?: lots on my legs and knees. battlescars from when i was a kid
of things in my past that I regret?: lots
I KNOW: something you don't know
I WANT: that person to love me
I HAVE: a very big problem
I WISH: i was dead
I HATE: my life
I MISS: my old self
I FEAR: love
I HEAR: my tortured soul
I WONDER: if that person will ever love me back..
I REGRET: fuck you.
I LOVE: of course i do.
I ACHE: my tummy does. that's why i have medicines for that
I CARE: not
I ALWAYS: try to smile even when i don't want to
I AM NOT: not a hopeless romantic
I DANCE: in my dreams
I SING: jpop
I CRY: every night
I DO NOT ALWAYS: get so fucking obsessed like this
i'm lost
in a forest
filled with anger,
sorrow,
pain,
regret,
confusion,
nothing.
i'm naked,
bleeding,
melancholic
and cold.
i could feel the winds
beating at my back
i could still
see his face
distant
vague
blurred
and then no more
am i losing it?
that warmth we used to have?
the small treasure
you gave me
the one thing
i hold on so dearly
have i lost it already?
or is it still there
waiting
to be found again
Adagio Akazuki
in a forest
filled with anger,
sorrow,
pain,
regret,
confusion,
nothing.
i'm naked,
bleeding,
melancholic
and cold.
i could feel the winds
beating at my back
i could still
see his face
distant
vague
blurred
and then no more
am i losing it?
that warmth we used to have?
the small treasure
you gave me
the one thing
i hold on so dearly
have i lost it already?
or is it still there
waiting
to be found again
Adagio Akazuki
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
somewhat still sick.. -__-;;
listening to: the tv
wishes for: no more pain!!!
Went to the doctor today to check what's up with my tummy that's been hurting since yesterday.. (the reason why i couldn't go to second period) I thought it was appendicitis, since the pain was in that region. The doctor said it wasn't. But it still HURTS!! *sobs*
listening to: the tv
wishes for: no more pain!!!
Went to the doctor today to check what's up with my tummy that's been hurting since yesterday.. (the reason why i couldn't go to second period) I thought it was appendicitis, since the pain was in that region. The doctor said it wasn't. But it still HURTS!! *sobs*
Sunday, August 08, 2004
Longest online time. Ever.
listening to: Kyou Kara Maou Original Soundtrack
wishes for: Yuki~~~ *squeals ala Shuichi*
7 hours and 41 minutes as of now, and I'd still be online for the next hour or two. ^^ w00tm3h.
Aki got my 2222 dA Kiriban! Yay for her! She wished that she would get it and she did!! Yay!! *celebrates*
Went to Sangley Point in Cavite yesterday. It was fun. The food sucked though. >.> Bleh. I got to board a real live navy ship!! Whoo!! But t3h evil greenish water scared the hell out of me >.o And I didn't even notice that the ship was rockin'.. o.0 There were two ships we boarded. BRP Emilio Jacinto (PS35) and the really really big one with the helipad, BRP Dagupan City. I forgot the code thing for that. *w* I loved t3h helipad. It was so windy there.. But it takes hell to get up on there. The bridge was cool. It had this funky coffeemaker. And it smelled like Tic Tac, too. xD And they had a mini TV! No cable though. ^^;
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways, yeah. I'm still online. Bwahahaha. Immagonnago eat dinner now. ^^
listening to: Kyou Kara Maou Original Soundtrack
wishes for: Yuki~~~ *squeals ala Shuichi*
7 hours and 41 minutes as of now, and I'd still be online for the next hour or two. ^^ w00tm3h.
Aki got my 2222 dA Kiriban! Yay for her! She wished that she would get it and she did!! Yay!! *celebrates*
Went to Sangley Point in Cavite yesterday. It was fun. The food sucked though. >.> Bleh. I got to board a real live navy ship!! Whoo!! But t3h evil greenish water scared the hell out of me >.o And I didn't even notice that the ship was rockin'.. o.0 There were two ships we boarded. BRP Emilio Jacinto (PS35) and the really really big one with the helipad, BRP Dagupan City. I forgot the code thing for that. *w* I loved t3h helipad. It was so windy there.. But it takes hell to get up on there. The bridge was cool. It had this funky coffeemaker. And it smelled like Tic Tac, too. xD And they had a mini TV! No cable though. ^^;
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways, yeah. I'm still online. Bwahahaha. Immagonnago eat dinner now. ^^
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
I have ENROLLED!! MWAHAHAHA!!
listening to: Kyou Kara Maou Original Soundtrack
wishes for: More Kyou Kara Maou!! >D
Yesshhh
Here's me sked. Japala1 might be removed if OBJECTP and/or dasalgo would be available. ^^
MWF
0920-1020 Anmath2 S22 J304
1030-1130 TinTech S22 J304
1140-1240 Genpsyc S22 J304
TH
0800-0930 Japala1 S18 Y505
0940-1110 ISTech2 S12 J212
1120-1250 IntroDB S22 G206
Yay!! Isn't my schedule prettiful~? ^^ Ross~ Classmates tayo sa Genpsyc and Japala!! xD Mwahahaha!! xD
Comment here kung magkaklase tayo or hindi sa ibang subjects. Pagtawanan natin ang isa't isa. xD
I LOVE DSL!!! xD
listening to: Kyou Kara Maou Original Soundtrack
wishes for: More Kyou Kara Maou!! >D
Yesshhh
Here's me sked. Japala1 might be removed if OBJECTP and/or dasalgo would be available. ^^
MWF
0920-1020 Anmath2 S22 J304
1030-1130 TinTech S22 J304
1140-1240 Genpsyc S22 J304
TH
0800-0930 Japala1 S18 Y505
0940-1110 ISTech2 S12 J212
1120-1250 IntroDB S22 G206
Yay!! Isn't my schedule prettiful~? ^^ Ross~ Classmates tayo sa Genpsyc and Japala!! xD Mwahahaha!! xD
Comment here kung magkaklase tayo or hindi sa ibang subjects. Pagtawanan natin ang isa't isa. xD
I LOVE DSL!!! xD
Monday, August 02, 2004
something i ripped off people's blogs
litening to: Aiko - Hatsukoi
wishes for: lots of stuff.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
01. Joanna
02. Rika
03. Bakla (...)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01. Self proclaimed DLSU Yaoi Goddess
02. I draw gooooooooooood
03. I understand basic Japanese
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01. I have a bad sense of humor
02. My height.
03. I procrastinate too much
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01. Homophobes
02. ANMATH1
03. Why I can't seem to be able to kill myself
THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
01. Michel Onasis Seno Ogbinar
02. Extreme Homophobes
03. My family
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
01. cockroaches
02. wiggly pasta
03. love
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
01. Listening to Suteki na Shiawase (Beautiful Happiness) ^^
02. Her
03. Lots of food
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS:
01. Hershey's
02. AnimeOne (is that considered a brand?? O__o)
03.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
01. Suteki na Shiawase
02. Crucify My Love
03. Sayonara Solitaire
THREE PEOPLE YOU "SPEND" THE MOST TIME WITH:
01. Me
02. Val
03. Ross
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
01. Kill myself
02. commit suicide
03. draw hands
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
01. Draw
02. Sleep
03. Surf teh Net
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE:
01. The complete Kyou Kara Maou episodes in me pc
02. a laptop I can call Wolfram/Wolfie/Wolfy ^^
03. death
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
01. Mangaka
02. Videogame designer
03. Kicker of Microsoft Ass
THREE COLORS YOU LIKE:
01. Black
02. Blue
03. Purple~
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
01. Japan
02. t3h US
03. anywhere in Europe
THREE THINGS YOU JUST DID TODAY:
01. Sulk
02. Procrastinated
03. Download the raws for KKM ep14 and get irritated 'cause it won't download properly so I settled with downloading episode 15&16. Bah.
litening to: Aiko - Hatsukoi
wishes for: lots of stuff.
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY
01. Joanna
02. Rika
03. Bakla (...)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01. Self proclaimed DLSU Yaoi Goddess
02. I draw gooooooooooood
03. I understand basic Japanese
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01. I have a bad sense of humor
02. My height.
03. I procrastinate too much
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01. Homophobes
02. ANMATH1
03. Why I can't seem to be able to kill myself
THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:
01. Michel Onasis Seno Ogbinar
02. Extreme Homophobes
03. My family
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
01. cockroaches
02. wiggly pasta
03. love
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
01. Listening to Suteki na Shiawase (Beautiful Happiness) ^^
02. Her
03. Lots of food
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BRANDS:
01. Hershey's
02. AnimeOne (is that considered a brand?? O__o)
03.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS @ THE MOMENT:
01. Suteki na Shiawase
02. Crucify My Love
03. Sayonara Solitaire
THREE PEOPLE YOU "SPEND" THE MOST TIME WITH:
01. Me
02. Val
03. Ross
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
01. Kill myself
02. commit suicide
03. draw hands
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
01. Draw
02. Sleep
03. Surf teh Net
THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE:
01. The complete Kyou Kara Maou episodes in me pc
02. a laptop I can call Wolfram/Wolfie/Wolfy ^^
03. death
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
01. Mangaka
02. Videogame designer
03. Kicker of Microsoft Ass
THREE COLORS YOU LIKE:
01. Black
02. Blue
03. Purple~
THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
01. Japan
02. t3h US
03. anywhere in Europe
THREE THINGS YOU JUST DID TODAY:
01. Sulk
02. Procrastinated
03. Download the raws for KKM ep14 and get irritated 'cause it won't download properly so I settled with downloading episode 15&16. Bah.
Sunday, August 01, 2004
Quizzes!
listening to: Monty Python - The Usage of the Word Fuck
wishes for: no more pizza.
theOtaku.com: What Anime Legend Are You?
Which CLAMP series' random item are you?
Quiz made by Let-kun
You are the Manipulative Dreamer
Kanoe
Least able of the Dreamgazers, you move your strings to control the actions to lead to your personal goals, no matter how many heads will roll. The most 'alive' of the Yumemi type.
What kind of Dreamgazer is more appealing to you?
Quiz made by Let-kun, based on Melange's
Treatise on Dreams
theOtaku.com: What is Your Japanese Novelty Item?
theOtaku.com: What is Your Anime Zodiac?
listening to: Monty Python - The Usage of the Word Fuck
wishes for: no more pizza.
theOtaku.com: What Anime Legend Are You?
Which CLAMP series' random item are you?
Quiz made by Let-kun
You are the Manipulative Dreamer
Kanoe
Least able of the Dreamgazers, you move your strings to control the actions to lead to your personal goals, no matter how many heads will roll. The most 'alive' of the Yumemi type.
What kind of Dreamgazer is more appealing to you?
Quiz made by Let-kun, based on Melange's
Treatise on Dreams
theOtaku.com: What is Your Japanese Novelty Item?
theOtaku.com: What is Your Anime Zodiac?
Today is a day for sadness
listening to: THE STAND UP - Hateshinaky Tooi Sora Ni
wishes for: Kyou Kara Maou fansubs until the series ends. And teh raws, too.
To the Endlessly Faraway Sky... is a livejournal community dedicated to Kyou Kara Maou.
Kyou Kara Maou has been licensed. Geneon has it. *sobs like hell*
All I can do now is hope that AnimeOne still fansubs it until the whole thing ends. *sobs*
listening to: THE STAND UP - Hateshinaky Tooi Sora Ni
wishes for: Kyou Kara Maou fansubs until the series ends. And teh raws, too.
To the Endlessly Faraway Sky... is a livejournal community dedicated to Kyou Kara Maou.
Kyou Kara Maou has been licensed. Geneon has it. *sobs like hell*
All I can do now is hope that AnimeOne still fansubs it until the whole thing ends. *sobs*
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