Recap: Debut
listening to: Kannagi no Tori - Futari no Basho
wishes for: no more bags!!! X_x

April 25:
My debut. Mama woke me up early so I could burn, shrivel up and die we could hear mass. Then i wasted three to four hours on the PC writing my Suikoden II fanfic, listening to Suikoden II midis and mp3s[the rare ones you'd find online]. Aretha and I then went to the parlor to get our hair done, and my make-up. The shampoo was lurvely. Aretha's hair looks better straight than super-wavy. My hair looked ugly. ~_~ it was far from what i wanted, really. Oh, and the make-up was good, but at first, it looked too thick. And my eyebrows!!! THEY MURDERED MY EYEBROWS!!!! ;__; *sob* Aretha and i spent three hours in the parlor, thus making us late. o.0 I was supposed to be at the hotel at 6.00pm, but noooooooooo, we had to waste our time in the parlor. Anyways, when we got to the hotel, i saw my classmates hanging out at the lobby, so i skidaddled to hide behind the giant easter egg display. Only, there was this space between one egg from the other, so Anne saw me ;__; Then i found Emi near an open elevator, so i made a run for it, grabbed her arm and went in teh elevator. It was OK for emi to see me in my lilac gown, but not OK for my classmates, er.. for some unknown reason o.0 how... strange.

Anyways, hid at the CR, and then at the.. uhm.. what do you call that again? Ngyargh.. That place with something resembling a patio on the 7th floor. The place where you could see the whole Ermita area, and a lot of stars. It was a kinda romantic place. Too bad the smokers made it their smoking area *cough cough* Then we had this problem. We were short four guys and two girls. O_o Nya. Anyways, we started late.there were a lot of people, too. they were hungry, and i acted like an idiot on stage. >_< yeah. I hope no one noticed that it wasnt exactly 18 roses and 18 candles.. o.0 myo.. anyways, after those two, we started dinner. people were literally all over the buffet. i only got to eat salad and soup and little bread just before the unfinished table to table picture taking and the 18 treasures. that was followed by the dancing. groovy band. :D yeah. after the fourth song, i ate dinner. i ate on a small plate, meaning i only had little to eat. then i ate dessert. yum! love their cheesecake!! ^__^ anyways, after that, we danced again. then the slow dance. ^^; i got to dance with tomochan ~<3 and arred, and khan, too~ ^^; then the band let mike sing, and then i requested val and kris to sing, too! ^^; and my sister and tatum sang as well. ^^;

myk, ellen and kent were prolly the last people we left behind at the ballroom. khan went home fifteen minutes[?] before we did. we were playing wiff the piano. :3 hehe.. arred went home on his own, even before dad could ask him if he wanted a ride. heheh.. oh, and i had fun taking a bath and removing make up and the frickin hair spray remnants on me head.

overall, the debut was fun. :D gots lots of presents, too~ [most of them were bags ~_~ now i have bags for every month.. and a wallet for every day of the week... ~_~]

JILLIA BLIGHT, YOU BITCH!!!!!! >_< *stabs jillia blight*

Err...
listening to: random midi's on my pc
wishes for: *thinks*

Which poem are you? And Death Shall Have No Dominion by Dylan Thomas Man, you're dramatic and overwrought. Nothing is ever simple to you. You like to brood. You're probably one of those goths.

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er... o.0 what?

oh, practice today. i just woke up, too. we leave in 30 minutes. you think i can take a bath, dress up, and make a song list in that time? no? i agree. :D

pfft. bah. grr. nyaa. ~_~
listening to: X tv OST 1
wishes for: my debut to go MY FUCKIN WAY

er, yeah. doing the base for the emcee scripts right now. and then i'd go to Jaya's place in the evening. Its her birthday today. :3 got her a nice gift. hope she likes it.

i dont really like pressing the shift button at the start of sentences. *shrug* got used to ms word i guess. ah well.

nearly finished suikoden 2 last night. damn ps console hanged on me when i just escaped l'renouille. damn. now i have to fight that darned beast rune all over again. bah. T_T *stabs jillia blight until she dies* die bi0tch!

oh, and yeah. someone's trying to butt in in my debut preparations. im not letting anyone ruin my debut. it's going MY WAY, and MY WAY only. T_T anyone who tries to ruin it will be fed to the hobbits. they're very hungry.

ps: i have a new email. it's: bloodriot@gmail.com. and no, it's not ginomail. ick. it's google mail. :3 ish fun.

oh, is the layout working? are the pictures working? *blink* i hope they do..

Burfdei~ Burfdei~ Burfdei~
listening to: Round Table feat Nino - New World
wishes for: lotsa gifts,and for my debut to go MY WAY, demmet

i hate my anmath1 and compro2 professors. i only had a few grade differences and they still didnt pass me. boo. *sob*

so there. im gonna hafta take anmath1 and compro2 again next term. no summer classes for me, cause my summer's gonna be dedicated to the internet and the playstation. and my bed. :D

kang's burfdei is on thursday~

jaya's burfdei is tomorrow~

my burfdei was last year!! XD

immagonna buy gifts now~ toodles~

Yayness~
listening to: Card Captor Sakura - Ashite e no Melody
wishes for: a huggable jowy plushie.

<< asphyxia >> << kang's.mp3.rotation.site >> is up!! Yay! SUpport her site!

Oh, and lookie here, too! NSOLL Drama Guild site! i suggest you put your speakers off when visiting this site. it gots awful midi playing in the background.

the new layout's another pinderly layout. its because i love her so. :3

Oh, and apparently, experiments with your mic causes your yahoo messenger to hate you.

Bishies, bishies and more bishies!
listening to: L'Arc~en~ciel - 4th Avenue Cafe
wishes for: decent grades

added:
Balmung, Reki and Kite/Shuugo of .hack/Legend of the Twilight Bracelet

Tee hee! they cute! adorable! especially Balmung!!! XD

go read the legend of the twilight bracelet onyorokonde!

Excerpt: What I'd Do: a suikoden2 fanfic
listening to: Ragnarok Online - Labyrinth
wishes for: more suikoden2 Jowy/Riou fanfics, whether lemon, lime or shounen ai!!

A gentle breeze ruffled his now long hair. Riou did not make a move to clear his eyes of the now-long bangs. In fact, he did not move at all.

"Grandpa, do you think I could have done something to have prevented this? Do you think I made the wrong decision?" Riou asked the silent grave. He knew that it would not answer back. What was once dead could never come back to life, he heard someone said that before. "Could I have kept Nanami and Jowy with me all the time? Or is Fate just too cruel to me? Or am I just so unlucky?"

Memories took him back to his childhood days, on that day that he met Jowy Atreides, the son of the rich man north of Kyaro Town. At first, Jowy was shy, but he slowly opened up to him. And Grandpa Genkaku was just as glad that Jowy joined in their training. Jowy was his first real friend, and he probably was Jowy's first, too.

Riou remembered that he and Jowy used to get in trouble a lot, and that his big sister Nanami would be there to get them out of trouble. He also remembered that day when he and Jowy buried their secret treasure and not let Nanami know about it. Then there were the days that they trained together, sneaking peeks over the high wall just to see Princess Jillia, Grandpa Genkaku's death, their joining the Unicorn Brigade...

...And then that night when they were first truly separated. That night when Luca Blight and Commander Rowd staged the 'ambush' on the Unicorn Brigade. That was the start of it all. Maybe I should have convinced Jowy not to jump. Maybe we should have fought our way. Maybe we shouldn't have joined the army at all.

"Do you think it's my fault Jowy went away, Grandpa? Is it my fault?" Riou's vision blurred. This time, he could not wipe away the tears. They kept falling, streaming down from his eyes. "Was it also my fault to have dragged Nanami in this mess?" Riou hugged himself. The wind became colder and the sky darkened.

"Grandpa, I know that I couldn't change what already happened... But if there was some way that I could, I would. Grandpa Genkaku, I'd change the past if I could. If I had the power to," Riou sobbed.

"All I wanted was for us to live together, Grandpa. Was that wish too impossible, Grandpa?"

The sky dimmed, and started to cry. Soft droplets of water fell on the earth, on Genkaku's grave, and on the dark-clad Riou. Slowly at first and then the rain started to pour. Riou still knelt before Genkaku's grave, sobbing with the sky.

Crr!! I kill you!!
listening to: Chii - I Hear You everywhere
wishes for: 1.0 sa anmath1, tangna!!

Tristan reyes!! ipasa mo ako or else!! [translation: pass me or else!!]

*cough cough*

anyways, i gots my scanner to work. posting a few scanned works up at my deviant art page~ its mostly descha work anyways. ^^;

i hate anmath1. i have to pass that subject though.. but what are the chances of an unfinished exam which i'm supposed to score 103 points over 100 to pass the 30% mark in my total grade which currently is NOT in the safe zone? *sigh* might as well prepare a grave... for tristan reyes, if he does not pass me.. he my anmath1 prof, btw. :3 sir, if you happen to read this, i really dont eman it. im being saracastic. but i really do hope you pass me. i try my best, i'm just really slow at math. TT_TT *sob* ah well, see you next term.. or maybe i'll take sir sze.. hmmmmm...

anyways, yeah. er.. um.. jowy atreides, i love you. kill jilli ablight for me, okay? and marry riou instead. jillia is a b33y4tch! and you and riou are MINE!! all MINE!! muhahahahahahahaha!!!

loving those bishies
listening to: Chrono Cross - Star Staling Girl
wishes for: Jowy x Riou!

If you think 4.30 was the latest i slept, you're wrong!!! i slept at 5.30am last.. uh.. sunday[?] just playing suikoden 2!!! and when i woke up i played suikoden!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! ph34rm3h!!

Oh, and here's a list of those bishies i oh-so love in Suikoden 2 and claim for my bishie closet:

Riou/hero [but my default hero name's ALWAYS Kyle. dun ask.]
Jowy Atreides, and it's not because of the ponytail.
Luc
Flik, the Blue Lightning
Viktor
Dr. Huan, not the Gensoumaden Saiyuki one.
Shu, who looks like Dr. Huan, only without glasses and longer hair. <3
Chaca, but that does not mean i'm a pedophile.
Seed
Hix
Templton
Yuber
Sasarai
Klaus

Will update if i see more worthy for my closet. :D

Oh, and did you know that i first got to know Suikoden 2 from this yaoi doujinshi site? :D and the pairing was Riou/Jowy!! Wheee! ^__^

New layout soon! Watch out for it!

I'm currently making a Suikoden2 fanfic. It's mostly angst and drama. Implied shounen ai only. I cant think of any situation to really make Riou and Jowy do anything. Yet. Might post it up at my ff.net account. And I'm planning to make this fanlisting for shounen ai. or something like that. take note i said planning.

Oh, and i gots lots of cute Jowy/Riou fanart in my sketchpad. find me a decent scanner and i'll upload them at my deviant art page.

Oh, one more thing..

I do believe in fairies! I do! I do!!

*hugs peter pan* watch the moviee!!! <3

oh, and i bought me a nice scanner today!! so yay! i can now scan fanart and stuffage!! w00tm3h!

till the next update!
toodles!!

the dead zone
listening to: awful silence.
wishes for: more suikoden II fanfics about the lead and his best friend!!! XD

i slept at around 4.30am yesterday just because i was playing suikoden II. w00tm3h! and yes, there is shounen-ai implications in the whole game. especially around the main character and his bestfriend... not to mention between the two mercenary leaders[Viktor and Flik].. oh, and there are a lot of bishies there, too! ^____^ I'm claiming them!! X3

done some suikoden fanart. lurvely~ ^^

tomorrow's easter, which means exactly two weeks before my debut. everyone must be there!!! onegai? :D

and holy week sucks. cant do much but get bored.

Whee!
listening to: Key a Kiss - Delux Eurobeat Mix
wishes for: more para para paradise!! whee!

Spent almost the whole day with creole today yesterday. i had fun. :D Paraparaparadise is addictive. Maybe I'll get to play next week. :D yay! Today Yesterday was !creole's birthday! Whee!

Erm, yeah. I gots to go to the people who'll make my debut dress. Bah. Stupid compromises. i like the design i made better, thank you very much. and my dress is now gonna be in lilac. and pink. damn. i liked my original colors, thank you. Oh, Bah. no use in arguing now.

anyways, we gots to have fun today. i guess. I gots this really really cute shounen ai piccie of Heero and Duo!! whoo!!! go me!! XD actually, i wanted this other piccie, but jem gots it first, so oh well. :D

egads, i'm actually searching for paraparaparadise mp3's right now.. O_o

anyways, where was i.. oh yeah. we had ice cream! actually, my ice cream turned into chocolate soup or something close to that cause it melted. and when everyone left, creole, julian and i were like drawing stuffage. yeah. stuffage. mostly stuff out of boredom, and creole did this really disturbing drawing of.. of.. gods, i cant say it. >_< and i cant believe i helped in making that!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!

oh, and julian is a great artist. yes he is. and i still cant believe he's 19. he looks young to be 19. he looks 16/17-ish. really. okay, at least for me.

ummm.. yeah. para para paradise. gotta love that game. :D

In the land of misery I'm searchin' for the sign
listening to: Get Backers - Yuragu Koto Nai Ai
wishes for: sleep, gracious sleep.

erh...hi!!! so what's up with the little note to val in ur blog? touched naman ako..well eto na end na ng mga compro anmath days natin together..im sure gonna miss u girl...really. im looking forward to your debut. kung payagan ako at matuloy ako...well its my first debut na aattendan ko. hehehe!!! la lng...so have u seen my blog? bakit mo naisipan maglagay ng note sakin? la lng..lam mo miss ko na kau now plng.

astig blog mo..ganda...pati yung comments thing..wla lang. well anyways..sige na. good luck sa finals. ingat lage girl... :)

val

luv ya girl! :D miss ya too! im so gonna miss hanging out!! kelan tau punta RP uli? :D

kang! hamishoosomuch! arred! make sure you get back home in time for my debut!! i need you there!! you and kang! and everyone else!!

;__;

actually, i've been feeling depressed since i went home. dunno why. maybe it't that feeling that no one i invited to my debut would come. especially those who i want to go to my debut badly. creole's one of them. *sigh*

i keep wondering if friendship ever ends...
if it does.. if the deschakada stops being the deschakada...
i think i'd cry.
i'd cry and stop laughing
stop smiling
stop talking
stop going out
stop everything.
maybe i'll just stop, period.

...i just hope that doesn't happen. they're the most important people for me.

i have not eaten breakfast yet.
listening to: parokya ni edgar - choco latte
wishes for: no more encomp

hi val!

um, yeah. crap. everything's just crap.

i finished doing that bio thing. kinda sucked. i found a nasty bug just now. and it was a crucial event at that. >_<

encomp is just hell. found out that i havent got all the complete requirements because of our stupid goddamned fucking lenient leader. fuck him. damn him to fucking damn hell.

grr. and to top it all off, i havent eaten breakfast yet. grr.

damn this sappy life.

on the lighter side, i'm kinda feeling excited about my debut. :3 i guess i wanna see the people i invited and be a whole lot of happy.

KANG!!! i miss you!! *hug* i like your new friendster pic. hishocute! ^^;;

bah. and that came from me, a person who hated friendster but has an account anyways.

still. i miss you kang!

arred, tumawag ka naman kahit paminsan-minsan lang.

khan, er.. how are ya? :3 you havent called in days.

neechan! see ya sometime soon! :3

oniichan! get yer ass back here! now! that or go online.

creole! update yer blog!!!

benji... ............................

r2.. start flooding my flooble again. please. i need the random stuffage.

everyone else: see ya at my debut! [or exams next week..]

fuck encomp1 to damn hell. grr. >_<

i am tired, pissed and sleepy.

damn encomp1.

Boo's and Yay's
listening to: the Cyborg 009 ending theme.
wishes for: that jimmy/Pucca shirt. and a ragnarok mouse pad. and a .hack//legend of the twilight poster.

Boo: ROTC finals from 6am to 2pm.
Yay: I still got to the Animax Carnival and the laungching of WoE

Boo: I got hit by a bullet shell near my lower lip
Yay: Im going to pass ROTC, thanks to my perfect attendance.

Boo: traffic was at its worst from Fort Bonifacio to La Salle
Yay: i got in time for the rest of the con. and lots of timezone

Boo: Khan and Creole and Sara left at five to go to Podium and my brother and I had to stay behind cause we had to wait for mom so we could go home together..
Yay: Animax let me and nigel do this little plug of theirs... Right after they left.

Boo: I have no money left
Yay: I gots lots of stuff from t3h convention.

Kitty ran Away.
listening to: Steve Conte - Stray
wishes for: my kitty to come back home. :(

Kyoneko ran away cause mama hit him. :( I miss kyoneko. :(

Printing invites as i type. kinda hard. i gots three typos in one sentence. Bah.

what else.. hmmm.. oniichan isnt going online anymore. i have a terrible headache. i have a cold. im sick. i need a descha episode. or a ficlet aparment episode.

......

i need a hug ;__;