Tuesday, October 14, 2003

...truth...

Er, after that sort-of angsty episode... I kinda got the time to think and stuff... when I'm supposed to be studying for INTRODS...

I think... i think i just wanted to feel that warm fuzzy feeling most people around me has.. I mean, Jessie has one... She's been ranting about it since forever... And I prolly got jealous or something... And with all the cutesy wootsey thingies that happen, with all the teasing around... I kinda thought that i needed something warm and fuzzy, too...

That's just probably it... Or maybe i'm just truly delusional... I mean, I have a twisted imagination, a twisted reality and a twisted fantasy... so what's there for me to hang on to? sanity? i dont think so..

...So i've decided to give the whole darned thing up... this delusion that i like someone... i'm gonna give the whole damn thing up, kick myself and get on with my life. Which, by the way, has no direction, has nothing to bear and is entirely based on something fictional.

...

I dunno. Maybe i'm just afraid that if he ever finds out we won't be able to get to hang out together like we usually do... Or maybe it's because i'm too scared to even think of what people think of me.. Of who they see me as..

Especially if that someone is that person who you really really like...

maybe i should give up on life itself, so i wont be bothered of these kinds of thoughts anymore..?

Maybe.

Monday, October 13, 2003

hi-mi-tsu!

Uhm, I don't exactly think that i should be posting this, but what the heck. Four people already know. Including you, Jessica Morgan-soon-to-be-McPierce.

So you see, i've got this... thing for someone, though i'm not quite sure how big a thing it is. Let's call him........ Vanyel. Well, at first, Vanyel was just the everyday, normal classmate. Nice, charming type... and very much out of the ordinary.

Er, so how should i say this... I really don't know how or why... I actually feel confused about how i feel about Vanyel. Though i guess most people might confuse what i feel with ... crushing or worse... loving Vanyel... I mean, how would i be able to do that when i'm not really sure... well... uh... okay, so i *MAY* have a crush on him... but...

AAAAAGH!!! This is irritatingly and annoyingly CONF00ZING!!!!!!!! >____________________< This bites.

I like Vanyel, but to what extent, I have no idea.

Lemme tell a quite interesting story on how confusing things got...

It was this afternoon, during my COMPRO1 make-up class. Val, Andrea and I were talking about... well... guys we like. It actually started with this spin-the-bottle game last week. My fault. I pestered everyone to join. Meh. >__>

So there... we were talking about ... yeah, that one. So we were talking 'bout them. Val and Andrea had a deal that if we got our exam results and they passed, they'd tell who those guys were. I thought i had gotten off the hook. Actually, Andrea made a guess earlier. And yes, she hit the right spot. Vanyel. I asked her why... Then she said that there was this one time where her bag and Vanyel's were at the same chair... and i kinda moved her bag to another chair... @_____@ *extreme redness blush*

uwaa... >____< If someone knows whether this is an infatuation or obsession, console me. If you think i'm crushing him, or worse... loving *shudder* him... tell me, i'll set an appointment with ya and talk to you about it.

i really wanna know...

i dun like being conf00zed. specially with things like this.

Monday, October 06, 2003

Iris!!!!

Well, today marks the day that pRO gets the Iris server. We get twice the drop rate and exp until this friday. I really do hope i could play...

Oh, one more thing!!! Soujiro-sama replied to meeeeee!!!! happy~!! You know, Soujiro the really cool permanovice in iRO?? he even _had_ a novice journal... to bad he became a mage already... *sigh*

Soujiro-sama's my idol.. I have a permanovice with somewhere close to his permanovice build in Loki..

Er, anyway, i forgot what else i was going to say, so... Toodles!!!!!

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

darned evil library woman

okay, here's what i've been fussing about this morning because it made me miss 90% of my Bio class. We were supposed to be watching these 2 films, so our teacher told me to go to the library and get teh films there. so i did. kakach was with me. it took us five to ten minutes to get to the other side of the campus 'cause that's where the library is. so we get to the library, right? right. we go up to the IMS desk and ask the snotty-looking lady for the two tapes our bio prof told us to get. she raises her eyebrows and asks us what the title is. duh. our prof didn't tell us. so we tell her that it was something that had to do with cells, cell structure and biology shit. she goes over the shelves and stared at it for three seconds, comes back and tells us that she couldn't find it. MY ASS!!! >_<

so we go back to our classroom which is on the other side of the frickin campus. kakach and i get there and tell our prof that we need the title of the video. he tells us and we head back to the bi0tch of a darned library woman. so far we've wasted 20 minutes of our 1 hour class. when we got back to the ISM, we tell the bi0tch the tilte, she goes and looks for them for TEN FRIGGIN MINUTES, then her co-worker [who apparently knew where the tapes were and didn't tell] told her that the tapes were right on her desk. we've wasted 30 minutes. then she asked for our ID's. we used kakach's cause i wasn't a library user. but then kakach had an overdue book so she had to pay for that... ON THE FOURTH FLOOR. when she came back down, she was told that she had to re-activate her ID on the THIRD FLOOR!!!!! i wanted to kick the evil library woman... five minutes later we got the tapes and the keys[but forgot the rc cord or sumthin] and got back to class, and lo and behold. there were only ten minutes left in our class time.

i would like to say Thank You to the evil darned bi0tch library woman who attended to me and kakach. Thank you SO damned much for making us miss 90% of our bio class. *note sarcastic tone*

grr.

anyway, i'm off to practise~!!
random insanitynessness!!!


Take the Super Mario Bros. Super Test! by the Shrine of Insanity


visit this site: http://www.shrineofinsanity.com/

i've been playing there for a while now.. hehehe...

Saturday, September 20, 2003

Funx3!!

Whee~!!! I've been leveling up like mad recently~!! Yep, you heard me right. Like mad.. Level-Up screwed up somewhere while they were upgrading their patches, so in return, they're giving us three times the fun in playing pRO!!!!

Three times more experience, three times more drops!!!!! Meaning, MORE CHANCES TO GET RARES!!!!! XDDD

This is soooo fun~!

Anyway, I'll be off now. I'll be playing now~! ^__________^

Toodles~!

Sunday, September 14, 2003

Something To Say... After a LONG While..

LOVE IS SUPER CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD Creole and I have claimed him. I can't wait until I develop the film... I shall worship his picture... XD

Gino, i got lots of piccies for ya. mostly the Level-Up! Cosplayers... But there's a pic of me poking one of the posters, a piccie of Love *dreamy sigh*, a piccie of JM Chua and the other cosplayer in their choreogrpahed fight scene where JM Chua said it sucked, a piccie of Khan with a twisted face, Nigel with the porings we bought and... and... other stuff.

BTW, sumakit binti ko sa kakatayo. There was a LOT of people. It was like Prontera, complete with the fountain. You could really feel the lag. We met a lot of interesting people. Andun si Cohen, yung blacksmith. he offered to sell me his Fire stiletto. i didn't have 1.5M zeny. Dang.

I have named the medium-sized poring i got as "Big Milky", and renamed the smaller one "Little Milky". Whatever. Nigel suggested that "Little Milky" should be "Milky Jr.", but since I got Little Milky first, I won't.

Currently, Big Milky and Little Milky is sitting on my pillows, staring at the wall... uh, the TV.
Heehee.

Um, what else... I got a few txtmates there... One of them was kinda cute, but he's definately too young. Damn. And... and... Uh... we didn't even get to use or 'alibi'. hehehe.

Plus, Creole mad a mistake. A really evil mistake. Hehehe... Uh, i think i've talked enough. *wink*

Toodles~!

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

Quizzies again!!!!

Has anyone considered that maybe this world doesn't deserve to be saved?
Fenix.
First priority: Loki.

Second priority: Making sure that he never finds
that out.

Take the male version of this quiz or you can visit
Ellie @ pitas.com


Which female character from Ragnarok are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~! me likes loki, too!


You are Loki!!!
Ragnarok character quiz!!!!!! (With pictures)

brought to you by Quizilla

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~

Loki.
First and only priority: Yourself.

Take the female version of this quiz or you can
visit Ellie @ quod.pitas.com

XD

Mayura
You are Mayura. You are cute and actually a bit too
energetic. You like strange mysteries and your
so beautiful. Your cute and you are actually
very clumbsy, you always fall down or trip but
at least it's always accidentally.


What Matantei Loki(Ragnarok) character are you?
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O.o HER?! i got HER?! what the..?!

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yeah...

that's what my reaction was last night during the last minutes of my DesCha season ender... I was staring at the wall even after the epi for i don't know how long, then Anki-han called again to ask what my reaction was... I was like... [O.o ................................................shocked.]

yeah.

that's the word.

shocked

Friday, August 15, 2003

Lagnawait

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! THIS CANT BE HAPPENING!!! IT'S SO UNFAIR!!! THEY SAID 9 AM !!!! IT'S 9 AM AND THERE'S STILL NO TOP-UP! AAAAAAAAGH!

*is not patient*

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

French people are gay people

But then, i have no proof... Only that I have this paperback fiction in my closet done by a french writer... or at least i think he's french...

It's about Boy and MR. A and their uh... experiences from courtship to marriage. and they're both guys. :D

Wy am i posting this? Well, a while back, i read in an article that gay people wanted to get homosexual marriages legal, so i posted that... No relation, i know, i know. But hey, that's me.

Hideki-chan is showing signs of aggression. He punched two holes in the wall in tonights epi... Plus, he's a showoff. Hideki-chan shows off his incwedibwy incwedibwe powers. *pokes Hideki-chan on teh cheek* Also, when Hi-chan grows up he'd be a super-cute bishie who'd get chased by girls. Problem is, he's like his father. *pokes suisei on the cheek, wherever he is... hamishoooo!*

Rika is on a diet. Shin will do something really nasty (like, oh say, not let her eat strawberry shortcake AND chocolate for the longest of times) if she doesn't follow her diet.

Waitaminute...that's me... WAAAAAAH!!!! ...grapefruit anyone?

BTW, Edo Tokugawa is broke. Let us all laugh at him.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

*cough cough*

OI, arred, how was your black to green with the fairy goddess of cooking??? *evil cackle*

Gino, why does arred get more episode time than I do??? it's unfair!!!!!

Khanny-wanny? you OK? did your exams exhaust you? Dun worry, samin din eh...

Cweolee? Did you pass your quilt na? (Which is quite odd, since alam ko na second quarter pa talaga dapat ipasa yung quilt.... *scratches cheek*) PS: please don't torture us sa DesCha 6.5!!!

Jem-oneechan!!! get well!!!

Dikya: nuthin' much... Update your blog already?

Danii: UAAP tickets!!!! >.<

Other people i forgot to metnion: helloooooo~!

Tha'ts all for now.. Have to do my Wiccan report for tomorrow... and fix the darned bug in my MP...

Toodles!

Saturday, August 02, 2003

PlueML!

I made an ML for the fandom of Groove Adventure RAVE. if anyone wants to join, i have a link here. just click it, 'kay? I just started this ML, so there's not much business going around.

What to look forward to in the ML:
Fics
pics
fanart
contests
the plueml site
etc, etc, etc...

one more thing.... i don't like people who send spam to this ML.

toodles.

Friday, August 01, 2003

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

For the DesChaKada and the PhoneKada:

WHAT:
Gino's despedida party
WHEN:
August 23, Saturday
WHERE:
I forget. Ask Creole.
WHAT TO BRING:
Yourself, of course. And food. :D
WHY:
Duh. It's a dedpedida party. What else would you expect????!!!! T.T
CONSEQUENCES:
*thinks* character deletion? *shrug* no idea

DesCha Members:

Announcement of the new gamemaster was postponed. Wait for further announcements form the gamemaster. :D

[also posted at the FA blog]

Toodles.

Sunday, July 27, 2003

bah. humbug. T.T

bleah. we have classes tomorrow even though this damn coup is going on. how evil.

On the brighter side, I'm finally level 30!!! whee. T.T

yeah. right. whatever.

toodles.

Monday, July 21, 2003

goddamned cockroaches!!!!!

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!!!!!!!!!

why mee?!??!?!?!?! whadididoo????

i was only sitting down on my terminal, typing away, doing my case study, then all of a sudden this goddamned cocroach pops out and NEARLY CRAWLED ON MY ARM!!!!!

i was crying my eyes out at the lab!!!!

PUTANGINANG IPIS YAN!!!!!!
Love can sweep you off your feet and carry you along in a way you've never known before. But the ride always ends, and you end up feeling lonely and bitter. Wait. It's not love I'm describing. I'm thinking of a monorail.
- Jack Handey (aka Jack Handy)

Broken promises don't upset me. I just think, why did they believe me?
- Jack Handey (aka Jack Handy)

There's nothing so tragic as seeing a family pulled apart by something as simple as a pack of wolves.
- Jack Handey (aka Jack Handy)

Taken from green eggs and sam
bloggin' at 12.30

At least it says 12.30 on my watch... i haven't eaten lunch.

I have adopted baby duo. nice kid. teen angst.

anyhoo, what to post, what to post...

ahh...

Gino, if you're reading this, then DARN YOU!!!! darn you for cancelling that mall thing last saturday. i went thgrough a whole damn lot just to get transpo for that thing and you cancel it at the last minute!!! ok, not the LAST minute, but 30 minutes before the time!!!!!!! AGH!!!! BWISIT KA!

What else...
Raynee-poo, hows you? Been spreading your ev0lnessness in ADMU? i'm spreding mine. :D Yaoi is GOD. hehe. i've converted around 3 people in my class already. Hey! That's progress you know. At least Yaoiness is spreading in DLSU. Now I knowwhy i entered this school.... To fulfill my mission!!!!! To spread the ev0lness that is YAOI!!!! *insert thunder sfx* MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

OK, not that that's said and done, I'm going to my class.

Toodles!

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

asdfljasdlfkja gjalskgjalsdfjalskj

bleah.

i went to school early to play pRO, and then i realized it was maintenance day.

grrrr..... T.T

and then this fsckingly goddamned guy yms me and asks me if he could show me his dick.

gawds, why are people so damned... UGH!!!! i cant take it anymore!!!!!

*bloodriots and attacks 50 people at the same time*

Monday, July 07, 2003

Tsubasa

No, it ain't my Smiler. It's one of CLAMP's newest releases and my recent addiction!!!!

It's *drumroll* Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLES!!!!! *applause&cheer*

i'm still in the process of learning EVEN MORE about it [and d/ling the goodies and scanlations] so expect more rants about this. Anywho, the story is AU, it's way way way different from the CCS storyline.

Tsubasa is, as mentioned above, an AU story derived from CCS. Sakura and Shaoran are childhood freinds, and boy do htey look cuter than ever... *glomps Tsubasa Shaoran* The character designs are absolutely CUTE! Think CCS Shaoran and add 6 more years to him. *starts drooling* He looks like a cross between Haru and Killua, but who cares? he still looks as cute as he does in teh CCS manga.

Anywho, Tsubasa has lots of references from another of CLAMP's recent works, XXXHolic, which i have no info on... [someone help! i'm a CLAMP fan who doesnt know a single THING on XXXHolic!!! wah!!!]

I NEE BOTH!!!!! NOW!!!!!

anyone interested helping me, please email me either here or here.

Big thanksies to those who will help me. :D