ARGHBLE!
listening to: Hiroki Takahashi - Kiku-chan no Soran Bushi
wishes for: Golden Pair!
mood:

I HATE COCKROACHES

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Kiku-chan no Soran Bushi is JUST SO FORKING ADORABLE. I can listen to it ALL DAY, ALL NIGHT.

KIKUMARU EIJI, MARRY ME ♥

ATTENTION!!!
listening to: KENN with the NaB's - Wake Up Your Heart
wishes for: Um. Cake. And Chocolates.
mood:

THE ONLY MOVIE THEY'RE SHOWING ON THE 18TH IS WATERBOYS. AND THE ONLY TIME THEY'RE SHOWING IT IS 8 IN THE EVENING. I forgot that the 33rd Nihonggo Speech Contest was going to be held on teh 18th as well (It starts at 2pm, Cinema 3, which is where Eiga Sai is held)

I KNOW! I SHOULD HAVE CHECKED THE SCHEDULES FIRST BUT I DIDN'T NOTICE IT UNTIL NOW. I'M SORRY.

This means KARAOKE AT PODIUM. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA. And then Waterboys in the evening. You guys can play as much DoTA as you want, but we STILL would go on as planned.

And don't forget the cake! I'm treating cake that afternoon! So, while you guys are eating cake, I'd be leeching off the WiFi and watching PaniSuta. Muharhar.



Here's the timetable I made up just now:
1000-1200 - Meet-up. Probably at PowerStation, like we always do.
1200-1300 - Lunch c/o Artoo.
1400-1430 - On our way to Podium
1430-1530 - Karaoke
1530-1600 - Looking for a place with cake. Cheap, too, so I'll have enough to go home.
1600-1700 - PaniSuta. I mean, Cake.
1700-1900 - Whatever.
1900-1945 - Dinner
1945-2000 - On our way back to Shang to watch Waterboys
2000-onwards - Waterboys at Shang

And then we go our merry way.


Unless you want to attend the speech contest? o___0

Go away, emo kid.
listening to: Nagayama Takashi - Haru ni Omoidashi Omou
wishes for: i honestly do not know
mood:

We fought, you ran away. "It's always like this," is what I thought.
All I could do is bid you farewell as you fled, unable to do anything more, I...

We're on a downhill slide; are you crying somewhere now, I wonder? Or are you actually somewhere waiting for me?
It's not like you'd ever take it back, you've made your decision...

Why couldn't I just have been honest with you? I should have gone after you.
But you weren't there, you weren't there down by the river, where the sakura blossoms dance.
Why couldn't I just have been honest with you? Standing there, trying to look cool,
With the spring breeze blowing against me, I'll seek you out.

The sakura blossoms blow around me as I search and search for you, growing tired, but all that's left...
...is your image, back turned to me, still there, in my eyes.

I was wrong, but it's so like me--where are you now, with your back turned to me? I can't find you anywhere.
I just want to see your face once more, your smiling face.

Why couldn't I just have been honest with you? I should have gone after you.
If only it had been enough, but it just wasn't. I want to go back to that time.

Spring is the season when things are supposed to start,
But for me...I can't do anything but remember the past.

Why couldn't I just have been honest with you? I should have gone after you.
I'll be thinking of you in that season when the sakura blossoms dance.

Why couldn't I just have been honest with you? It's so long to wait, and I'm so looking forward to it.
The blossoms are falling, and you're just like the sakura, I'll be thinking of you in the spring.

-translations of Nagayan's song, Haru ni Omoidashi Omou, taken from here, as translated by fencer_x.


So I'm writing because I think that no one's ever going to read this. I'm not doing this to bash anyone, I'm not doing this to get anyone to hate me, or anyone else. I'm doing this because I have to. It's... Catharsis, I suppose.

Because it's hard being a friend for both sides

What was it that someone told me? Neutral Pacifism? Yeah, that one. Someone told me I wa a Neutral Pacifist. Because I don't want either side getting hurt. So in the end, I'm the one taking the pain. Just because I don't want anyone being sad.

I take it. And then smile. Because I don't want to sulk about it.

I KNOW IT'S NOT FAIR

AND I HATE IT BECAUSE I KNOW I CAN'T REALLY DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

I want to say that I don't want anything to do with it, BUT I CAN'T.



FINE. Do what you want, go ahead. I'll take care of the other end, so that nothing will ever have to happen. But what if I can't handle it? Won't I be blamed because I let it happen?


I just.. I don't know.



Maybe you're right and I don't know you after all. I don't even know who I am. I don't know what to do anymore. I really want to say that I don't want a hand in this, but I can't. I'm your FRIEND. I don't want you to feel bad. Any of you.

Heck, I consider you guys more my FAMILY than the people whose blood I share.




I love you guys.. and I don't want us to fall apart because of this. I don't want ANY of you breaking, hurting, and I'd do ANYTHING just so that you WON'T. EVER.






But right now.. I don't think I can do anything anymore. Or at all.




That doesn't mean I'll not try anymore. I'll keep trying.


Even though I know that at one point, all of you would hate me. I still would try and keep us all together. Whatever it takes.

I love you guys. I really do.






I just really don't know what to do right now.

Attendees!
listening to: Nagayama Takashi - Minamiguchi
wishes for: Blossom DVD
mood:

Updated: Feb 12, 2006

EIGA SAI - Feb 18, Shang
- Me
- Creole
- Kang
- Khan
- Artoo
- Sean
- Liu
- Jake

Confirmed with Kang. Benji cannot go.

STC BandFest - Feb 17, STC Covered Court
- Me
- Creole
- Liu
- Sean
Not Sure:
* Khan
* Kang
* Artoo

Nothing yet from Benji, and Jake.

For the Bandfest, I'll be getting the tickets and you can either pay half or full. It's Php50.00 :D

Scratch the bandfest. Creole's not going anymore, and I'm not really a good host left alone. Besides. We're seeing each other the next day, anyways.

We'll be having cake on the 18th, because I'll make sure I'll bring enough money for cake for all of us. Just cake though. Of course, drinks come as well. ^^;


EDIT:

Eiga Sai Movie List
And for those who're too lazy to click the link:
1. Gomen
2. Hatsukoi
3. Waterboys
4. Tsugumi
5. Swimming Upstream
6. Natsu no Page
7. Love Story wo Kimi ni
8. Koisuru Onna-tachi

.....Most of those are Love Stories. Or have Female leads. Is Waterboys a love story? O__o;

New Layout!
listening to: Nagayama Takashi - Okuru Uta
wishes for: CAKE~!
mood:

As a late celebration to BloodRiot's 3rd birthday, I've put up a new layout! It features Nagayama Takashi, posing for the Winter Bleach Musical photoshoot. The words are from his song, Kotoba.

Credits:
brushes: Wonderland
photo: TeniMyu e no Rondo
lyrics: Nagayama Takashi's Kotoba
code/layout: rika shiroi
emotes: Nittle Graspers


So yeah. Happy Belated 3rd Birthday, Bloodriot~ Enjoy the new Layout~

HOLYFORKSBATMAN!!
listening to: *pnish* Vol 6 - Monster Box
wishes for: Panic Cafe
mood:

HOLYFORKSBATMAN! I FORGOT TO GREET BLOODRIOT A HAPPY BLOG BIRTHDAY ON FEBRUARY FOURTH!

BELATED HAPPY THREE YEARS BLOODRIOT!

That one thing that changed my whole world...
listening to: Nagayama Takashi - Kokoro ga... (Toscana Ver)
wishes for: sideFudo+backstage
mood:

I don't think any fandom has gotten me this deep into worshipping it. I don't even think Kamui has made me worship SuzuKen. BL Dramas didn't make me want to stalk JunJun or Sakupyon or Seki Toshihiko and the like. No. This fandom totally BLEW ME OUT OF MY MIND.

See, things lead from one thing to another. At first, I thought I was only getting a new anime fix. And I've always been itching to watch TeniPuri but haven't until recently, when Kang and I watched it at her place. And then came my OTP battle between TezFuji and GoldenPair. Dream Live First decided this for me. Golden Pair wins. And then, Nagayan decided to throw a rock at me be ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE, threw a rock at my fandom boat, and now I've sunk so deep. Tuti decided to hop in the fandom as well since he and Nagayan are SO VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER

I was known to have yaoi as my desktop wallpaper and that my winamp skin matches my WinXP theme (The aesthetic groove one, since it coems with m atching Winamp skins for all four colors), but now...



They rule my world.

I sincerely hope this isn't a phase I'm going through. I want this to last FOREVER. Because I'm getting Blossom in the mail soon >D

Anak ng tokwa, kaya ako nauubusan ng pera eh xD

Maybe, after saving more money, and after buying my doll (which I'm now debating to name after Tuti and Nagayan or after Prynn), I shall buy all the TeniMyus that Nagayan and Tuti were in, plus every other merchandise that would include them.





ps.
thank you, Kang, for introducing me to this fandom. ♥ I just wish I'd have discovered this earlier~ ^o^/