Stressed out
listening to: Ishida Youko - Sugar Baby Love
wishes for: to finish the script, and START MY DASALGO PROJECT! :0
mood:

I've got too much to do, and so little time. I feel like I've run out of all the energy in my system and that i'm about to break. Poor me and poor Jimmy. We both need breaks.

Maybe I should start controlling myself. I mean, I KNOW i have to work, but all I do is put things off. I have to stop procrastinating. I know that. But sometimes, putting off procrastinating is.. er, well, procrastinating as well.

If that didn't make sense, it's okay. I'm not making sense anymore. It's 11.30 in the evening and I've gone totally skwushed. I dont make sense anymore and my head hurts. Last Saturday's headache hasn't gone away yet.

Last saturday, i watched artoo's Lord of the RIngs extended dvd's.. all day. as in one after the other. took me roughly 14 hours to finish the whole bit. and my head fuckin' hurt afterward. My eyes, too. But my eyes are sorta used to staring at screens for a long time. But my head hurt like hell.

And it hurts like hell right now.

And i just want to stop working but i know i cant.

I need someoen to help me with DASALGO. I fear I might not pass this subject and I wont see Ross, Val, Val and Erik anymore. Those four are actually the four people I can really cling on to in DLSU. the only four people who actually begged me to stay.

Maybe moving isn't at all bad. I just.. need somewhere to move to.

Maybe I can convince Ninang Cel to find me a college at San Francisco so I can stay there for the rest of my college days. Bad side is, i wont get to see not only the four people I love the most at DLSU, but Creole, kang, Jem, Khan, Benj, and everyone else back here.

Plus, there's this someone i won't probably see ever again. Pity I like him. I think I'm obsessing over him, too.

...Bad rika. Posting too much at LJ and forgetting bloodriot :( I should post more here.

I should be sleeping. -___-;

I dont want to work anymore.

Maybe I should.. kill myself? *shrug*