Lost my inspiration to write
listening to: The Scanty - I Love U
wishes for: my muse to come back ;__; i promise i'll feed you more shota!
mood:

Oh em gee, as Creole says. It seems that I can't write decently anymore. After the first chapter of Nine Tails was finished and a few paragraphs of chapter 2 was done, Mittens has left me alone. *sobs* Mittens is my muse, see. He's actually an evil yaoi spirit given to me by Artoo. I dunno where he is right now. I want him back. *sobs* Please, if you find my Mittens, please tell him I need him. I have a whole new shota collection just for him! ;__;

*on her knees, looking and shaking fists at sky* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
listening to: Xenogears OST
wishes for: Legend of Mana 2
mood:

I just heard from Khan that Square cancelled making Legend of Mana 2.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!! DAMN THEM!!!!! AAAAAAAAGH!!! I swear I'll kill the project head when I find out who that person is!! Why is he doing this to us?!?! *sobs* Screw Final Fantasy! I want Legend of Mana 2!!

Nfufufufufu!
listening to: Suikoden III OST - In the Moonlight
wishes for: shota! and my most special person! <3
mood:

this is fun

i meet lots of nice people over at LJ. x3

school sucked. skipped my first class this term. DASALGO. x3 gods, i was hungry.

i sold my soul to the devil
listening to: Shimokawa Mikuni - Popcorn
wishes for: cake and ice cream!
mood:

AKA i have an LJ.

That doesn't mean I'm leaving Bloodriot. ^^ I love Bloodriot so much, it's nearing its 2nd year anniversary. I have something planned for Feb 4th. ^^ Watch for it. ;)

I'm happy. I got to choose the bestest topic for my Informative speech for next next week. Topic: Elegant Gothic Lolita. I am love. <3

depressed
listening to: Shimokawa Mikuni - Alone
wishes for: *sigh*
mood:



because i miss her dearly.

because i hate the fact that she's on the other side of the world.

because i know that i might never meet her face to face.

because i know that a lot of people like her who she likes back.

because i care too much.

itai. mune ga itai.



I:

Your Beauty lies
in Sadness. Lonely, depressed and feeling broken.
For whatever reason, you see
this world only for the bad that it holds carrying
the burdens of yourself and
others. Some people like to be with you and your
unique vantage point when they
are down, you are someone who can sympathize with
them. But you find yourself
alone again when they seem to find a solution and
are happy again, yet you still
are stuck in this rut. Do not worry, you will make
it out at some time. Everyone
does, if you try. When you are seen all others want
to do is make your pain go
away, but that is something only you can do. You
probably keep to yourself a lot
and don't like to let people in, afraid to be hurt
again. You feel empty and
helpless and your looks reflect that, often seen
with tears in your eyes.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Dark, Earth Animal: Robin Color:
Grays, Blacks, Dark
Colors Song: Tourniquet by Evanescence
Expression:
Tearful Frown

Gemstone:
Aquamarine Mythological Creature: Spirit,
Gargoyle Planet: Mercury Hair
Color: Blue-Black Eye Color:
Gray

Quote:
"Am I too lost to be saved?"

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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thanks val. thanks khan. i feel a little better.

Dance, Gojyo! Dance!
listening to: that silly romanian song
wishes for: 60 cd's to back-up my cluttered 40gig drive
mood:

Oh gods this is addicting!!! Gojyo is so kawaii!!! *pinchii!*

Yes, well.. *ahem* There's an upcoming anime event where I plan to cosplay. It would be either Temari from Naruto (Oh gods, I'd really love to cosplay her!!!!! >w<) or Rukia from Bleach (Ohhhh~ Shinigami~~~ <3 Bleach is luff!), though most likely it would be Rukia, judging from the materials I'll be using for her costume. And I have the hair for it! Tscha~ <3 I'd still love to be Temari though.. I might even have Amiel and Mike cosplay as Gaara and Kankurou for me :D

Yes, that aside, I finally understand Operation Counting in DASALGO x3 The thing is, all my classmates are freshmen (except two, who are my batchmates but I dun even know them personally!) and I don't know what to do when I need to group myself with people for the machine projects o____o

And there's a bunch of us Filipino deviantAtists who are planning a dA convention. It's not gonna be something like an anime con, since dA doesn't just have anime artists. We have all sorts of artists. We have people who draw, who write, who take pictures, etc. So it's gonna be more like an art exhibit/gallery convention thing. ^^ I'm sure it's gonna be fun. I'm part of them people who're planning it :D

Meh. Now, I really think I'll be cosplaying Rukia. She's easier to make. *scratches cheeks* But I wanna cosplay her wearing her Shinigami clothes, not the school uniform. Cause Shinigami roxx0rz.

Bleh. I need to go to UST soon. @_@

Um, I guess that's it for tonight. :D

Toodles~ <3

*spazz*
listening to: Morning Musume - Happy Wedding Song
wishes for: brownies. because i never got to eat any today.
mood:

Oh gods, it was like, whoa..!!! And then WHOAA!!! and then Whoooaaaa.... You should have been there. It was awesome. We were awesome. x3 Kickass dude. Sanzo the homie was in teh house, j0!

Yes, and everyone else has an LJ and I don't. I suxx0rz! Boo! Hiss!

I saw Sanzo half nekkie. w00t for Hakkai! >w<

I am drunk. duah. from what, i do not know. o_O i mean, we didn't even drink. Oh, wait. i'm not drunk. o_O this is just normal behavior. i keep forgetting that.

Para para forever, j0!

I have not blogged for ages.

Happy new year. :D I am late, I know. I still greeted. ^^

I am random tonight.. whee! :D

My top three strangest gifts this christmas:
1. lingerie! Whoo! xD
2. an autographed picture of Jon Lapuz. O_o
3. Php600 worth of load. O_o;

My top three bestest gifts this christmas:
1. Eragon! Yessh!! FINALLY!!!
2. Php2000!! MORE FOR MY SD13 FUNDS!! WHOOO!!!
3. a laptop i never really got that. Boo.

My top three goals this year:
1. Raise enough money for a super dollfie 13 male!!
2. Get high grades, pass everything and be happy.
3. get plane tickets to the USA so I can finally leave the country and hopefully meet her. *squee*

I shall do a Creole imitation. *ahems* LOLZOMFGZZSTFUL0ZERR!!! xD gods we're all crazy.

Mango Musume gots an Ai Takahashi and Mari Yaguchi now! Whee! :D

oh yeah, i almost got caught watching Enzai last night.. O_o That was.. strange. O_o

And! I have started on Red Moon Murders! Whoopeee!!! because Adagio kept pestering me! And Amaru has turned into a manwhore! the bastard! *shakes fist at Amaru*

The first chapter of Nine Tails will be up soon. I need to edit it and fix the last part where Seiji pokes fun at *name censored until the end of part one is written because I rule*. Oh, they get to molest each other, too. *ebil laff*

i lub j00z.

and chickens are evil, j0.

ps. I need yaoi smut. care to give me some? or direct me to somewhere i can get them? for free?


Fire Goddess


What Elemental Goddess Are You? (Earth, Fire, Wind, Water) + Pictures +
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i wanted something else, but the description fits me so..


You're a sexy girl! You are beautiful, and you
love attention from guys, and are very
flirtatous. You might come off as a slut and
bitch to some but I think you have another side
to you that is pleaing for attention, love, and
care. You might be confident on the outside but
don't be afraid to unleash a more sensitive
side. Be better than just the average sex
symbol.


What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
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omfg, where the heck did that come from? O_o

rika's new year's resolutions!
listening to: Morning Musume - Love Machine
wishes for: I wanna talk to her again, mya. :3
mood:

1. I will move to a better school.
2. I will have more yaoi.
3. I will take care of Jimmy and upgrade him.
4. I will take care of Mittens, P-chan and Soujiro-neko. (P-chan is the remaining second generation cat, Soujiro the last of the third generation... Mittens is the newest.. the sixth gen, i think.)
5. I will get rid of the bags under my eyes by sleeping early. *gasp*

Well, that's the first five of it. ^^;

akemashite omedetou gozaimasu! happy new year!

love you minna! ^^ See you next year! :D

Toodles~ <3

Happy Holidays!
listening to: Naruto OST
wishes for: NO MORE BAGS DEMMET!
mood:

Merry Christmas minna! ^^

Haha.. It's Christmas and I'm listening to the Naruto OST. x3 This is fun. We haven't even eaten Noche Buena yet. Oh, wait. Correction. We're eating now.

*rushes off*

*rushes back*

Okay. Dinner. Eat. Uh.. Yeah. Happy Christmas! :D *hugs and kisses to everyone*

Chihaya!
listening to: Maki Ichihara - True Romance
wishes for: EARTHIAN!! >w<
mood:

Omigosh! I just finished watching Earthian, and it's just so LOVELY!! (Not to mention includes two angels smexing each other silly..) Chihaya is my uke! >w< Kagetsuki looks better with his hair short. He looks butt ugly when his hair's longer. And i wonder what happened to Chihaya's wing... oops. spoiler. Hee! >w<

Anyway, with that over and done with.. My net hours are "limited". Yeah right. As if they can keep me and Jimmy separate. Heh. >3 No one can take me away from Jimmy! NO ONE!! *evil cackle*

Can I rant a little bit more about Earthian?

Of course! This is my blog!

Earthian is so gosh darned beautiful. Kouga Yun should be named the Ruler of all Shounen Ai. I can't wait for Loveless to come out. Hope it doesn't get licensed immediately. I want them fansubs. But first, I have to clear up my disc drive. my 40gig is running out fast. Or maybe i should buy another HD.. with bigger capacity.. mmm.. that's right. Get a 200++Gig HD so i can rule the world. Okay, so I cant rule the worl;d with a 200++Gig HD, but hey. I try. *wink*

My Christmas piccie will be up hopefully before christmas!! >w<

Until then! Ja mata ne! Toodles~ <3

what a week.. @_@
listening to: Iwao Junko - Yoru no Uta (Christmas)
wishes for: lots of presents!! and no grade below 1.0 TT^TT
mood:

From Khan's blog who got it from Benji's blog

Your element is Shadow: Indifferent, unusual,
gentle and a complete mystery. No one tends to
know quite what to think of you because you
camouflage your emotions so incredibly well,
almost as well as your thoughts. You are
unpredictable in that no one knows exactly what
your going to do or what your capable of and
you've made sure they never will. You are quite
the wallflower but deep down inside is a kind
and very intelligent person. You are capable of
love but unless you let some light into your
shadowed life you'll have a hard time with your
relationships. People are a mystery only
because they all seem too superficial, you
would rather be somewhere else, away from all
the noise perhaps putting your feelings into a
form of art, maybe writing your feelings into a
poem or journal, or perhaps painting a picture.
The shadows make you feel comfortable and you
don't like to step outside your comfort zone or
let anyone else in, the spotlight terrifies
you. You are truly a mystery.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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Monday
Nothing much happened. Took an exam, went home, blah. Uneventful, really.

Tuesday
No exams. Watched dad's play in the evening. It rawked. Was really fun. Mom ruined it though. She kept laughing everytime June was on stage. @__@ I don't blame her though. Leann was kinda.. er... funny.. on stage.. I mean.. the death scene! omg, the death scene!! xD

Wednesday
Defense day! And then i didn't know that objectp was having an exam today!! I didn't even study!! O__O!! But.. it's okay. At least i answered most of the items.. ^^; And then, went to UST to pick Creole up so we can watch June at Johnny together. Creole, Asia and Kael got in free!! Yay! :D We watched the 'last full show', aka the Gala performance. I saw lots of scenes with extras in it. xD It was fuuun. Can't wait to transfer and join Teatro xD Creole says she really really wants to join Teatro now :D Yay! And then, I got to eat two cups of Ice Monster (A new way of eating RICE -caloy)! And then.. we were at the cast party. WHoa.. drank lots of zombiess... i didn't know how many glasses i drank.. al i know is, i ended up getting a headache. o__o dad and i got home at around 3.30 in the morning. O__O major headache. Slept for four hours.

Thursday
Woke up at the same time Jem arrived at the house O_O! I quickly ran to the bathroom, took a bath, dressed up, ate breakfast, got money and we skidaddled to Megamall to meet up with a friend *wink* Went through lots of places until we got to Greenhills, bought what i had to buy, went all the way back to Megamall, went to North Edsa to play a bit of Parapara, went to Jem's house, watched Infinite Ryvius (MUST WATCH!!!!!! >w<) ate dinner, read a bit of Rizal, went home, read a bit more Rizal, went to sleep.

Friday
Uhh.. Took an exam, waited for papa at Powerbooks at Greenbelt, went home, went online for the first time in the whole week, worried about my grades, went to bed.

Today
Going to Glorietta to shop for presents and clothes. And I have to go to Megamall to pick up my comish from CK. ^^ Gaara-sama~ <3

Toodles~ <3

It's not my fault! I swear!
listening to: Crystal Kay - Motherland
wishes for: world peas
mood:


Your Seigaku Match is... Kikumaru Eiji! The plaster
boy of Seigaku! (Ok, acrobatic boy...). He's so
hyper that you'll never be bored on your
dates~! Did i mention that he's SOO cute too?!
XD Demo..you must learn to love his childish
nature~ or else you might find yourself getting
irritated by his somewhat insensitive nature...


Who Is Your Tenipuri Match? ~Seigaku~
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Your whole life someone has always been cheering
you on. Tennis is cool, and you are actually
pretty nifty (if not downright quirky) Win with
pride, or lose with honor it doesn't matter
because tennis is life and life is sweet. (Just
don't drink the juice...)


Which Prince of Tennis team do you belong on?
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If a kid asks where rain comes from, I think a cute thing to tell him is "God is crying." And if he asks why God is crying, another cute thing to tell him is "Probably because of something you did." - Jack Handy

Well, I wanted something positive.

je vous déteste tout
listening to: Plastic Tree - aoi tori
wishes for: la mort à tous
mood:

I have decided not to study at De La Salle University anymore. I have been lying to m yself for the past years that I like the place. No, in reality, I don't. The place is awful. The administration is an evil, money-leeching corporation that turns education into hell. The bastards. Besides, even if I do leave DLSU, it's not like anyone will miss me and vice versa. I don't care. Not one bit. Nope.

I decided I shall take up Behavioral Sciences at UST. Jem and I are still debating which school to go to. My number one choice would be UST, but since it is hard to transfer there, we've listed other schools. Among them are UP, Miriam and St. Scholastica's. We're still considering other schools like APC, Ateneo and shit. >.> We're having a hard time choosing, but we'll find one. It's our choice and we're sticking to it. They say it's hard to transfer to UST, but mom and dad says they'll help me get in. Hopefully, they'll help Jem as well. :) As for the other colleges we're planning to go in that doesn't have Behavioral Sciences, i'm taking any psychology or literature/journalism or advertising course. Yessir. No more programming for Rika. Nope. No more. Besides, studying at a semestral environment will give me more time to actually study.

For that to happen, I think I'll take up my grandma's suggestion of taking a Leave of Absence next term to sort everything out. I'll also be getting a part time job somewhere [thinking Bizu at Greenbelt as a waitress x3 cakes!!] Jem and I will be using that time to hunt for schools and get our applications ready. Hyep, Jem and I are all set to transfer schools as soon as possible.

Speaking of transferring, Val is going to transfer, too. Oh, and Michi? Don't be sad. It's not like I'm going to die. We'd still be in contact with each other, right? ^^ I'll introduce you to a friend of mine one of these days.. I'm sure you'd like each other. Hehe. ;)

So there you go. But I'm not finished ranting yet. Will do that later though. Stuff to do. Bah.

Pas de Deux
listening to: Ritsuko Okazaki - Morning Grace
wishes for: Princess Tutu!!! >w<
mood:

It shall be the title of my next masterpiece.. All I have to do now is look for the perfect coloring materials.. or else I'll be forced to color it with Photoshop. Thanks to Okazaki RItsuko-sama, I am inspired. I finally found a copy of the Op-Ed of Princess Tutu <3 Morning Grace is teh luff. ^^ Now, if you know what pas de deux means, you'll have an idea of what I drew. ^^ I just hope it comes out the way i plan it to.. *crosses fingers*

Anyway, today's the last day of the four-day vacation thing. I have read Rizal's The Philippines: A Century Hence and slept through it.. I also have downloaded bunches of stuff, including 23-26 of Kyou Kara Maou. I went to Kang's play last night, too.. And something happened last night.. x3 Not telling.

For lack of anything else to post, here's teh lyrics to Morning Grace

Morning Grace
Okazaki Ritsuko
Princess Tutu Op Theme

yonde iru koe saa me o samashite

nakigao nugutte
mabushii hikari kigi no tsuyu
umareru

dare mo shiranai himitsu no mizube de
odore inochi no pas de deux
kyou mo yume miteru

sore wa yasashiku hageshii nagare ne
doko made tsuzuku labyrinth
watashi wa yukou
nigirishimeru yume

yonde iru koe watashi ga hitsuyou?

kanashii no mayou no
tobidatsu tori yureteru hana
sasayaku

sayonara namida anata wa suteki yo
odore inochi no pas de deux
ashita o yume mite

watashi ga yuku wa sono te ni watasou
egao hitotsu de hora ne
konna ni atatakai

dare mo shiranai himitsu no mizube yo
odore inochi no pas de deux
asu o yume miteru

sore wa yasashiku hageshii nagare ne
shiawase sagasu labyrinth
watashi wa yuku no yo

--

ohmifeckingosh! someone just molested me at soulseek.. O__o! his/her name's 'wish_souhait' and he/she scares me. I already have a seme-sama, thank you very much.. =__=

owwie, my brain hurts..
listening to: that darned background music
wishes for: get past level eight.. >.>
mood:

DeathBall: not pr0n is a killer. >.< I got past level fifteen, but i can't get past sixteen!! And the site doesn't offer any more clues!! AAAAGH!!! >.< This sucks!!!! *shakes fist* the source code has muddled clues, too!!! >.< what am i doing wrong?!?! i hate this!!! AAAAAGH!!! >.< *wants artemis fowl's brains*

School still sucks.

I can't feel the "christmas spirit". Does it still exist? Did it ever exist in the first place? O__o Can i have a cookie?

Why do i not like pageviews? And why can't i find decent plaid skirts? And striped socks? Do butterflies like butter? What about donuts? Are donuts going to take over the world? Will lollipops enter politics? Why am I being silly?

...'cause i dun have anything to post, that's why. -___-;

churros con chocolate
listening to: Psycho le Cemu - Gekiai Merry-go-Round
wishes for: Artemis Fowl fanart. More books!!
mood:

Yesterday, after school, I was at PowerBooks at Greenbelt. I love that place. The best place to read books. Actually, any PowerBooks place is a really good place to hang out. ^^ I love that bookstore. Lotsa books to choose from~ Lots of really good books to read~~ <3

I finally bought book 2 and 3 of the Artemis Fowl series!!! YAY!!! *skips around* ^^ And today, I bought The SUpernaturals, another book by Eoin Colfer! He's a really good author! :3

And today, I got to eat lots of food~~~ Yay! x3 Yay for Rockwell and Powerplant. x3 Churros is fun. And then for dinner we ate out for dinner!

Anyways, not enough to say except that i wanna read the books i bought already. ^^ Later, nya~ <3

*cackles*
listening to: Plastic Tree - Monophobia
wishes for: SD13 Chris and Isao Nanjou!!!!!!!!!
mood:

Nyahahaha!! New layout in under five minutes!! *cackles* Thank you for copy and paste! xD And look!! PANTYSHOT!!!! xDD

I likes this new layout. ^^ Tish all black and purdee. Yay for Muffins!!! >w< I lurve them. Chocolate Chip Muffins and ChocoBanana Muffins are teh sex!!! Mmm!! Myehehe. I want more! x3 it's because CCS's IT department had a pre-Christmas bazaar and they were selling Little Miss Muffins!! MUFFINS!!!!! *cackles* Marc bought me two last friday. YAY!!! x3 THANKYOUUUU!!!

Downloaded lots of stuff today. Mostly Plastic Tree and Psycho le Cemu stuff. Happyyyyyyyy~~~ x3

TOHMA SEGUCHI IS GODD!! xD

ah, jeez, i really need my sanity back!! @__@

Anyway, on to more important stuff! Like IntroDB and ISTech2!!! *works ass off*

ps: grounded. no internet until further notice. in the meantime, stare at the pantyshot. it makes people happy. >3

clam+jam+fly
listening to: Mythical Channel 328
wishes for: sd13fcs!!! aaaaaaaagh!!! >.<

CLAMP's site has changed. Lots. They now have this personal webspace just for them. It's called CJF: clam jam fly, for reasons I have yet to find out.

Anyway, i shouldn't be online. I should be working on INTRODB and ISTECH2. Demmet. >.<

Oh, and also. CLAMP has Clover listed under continuing works. Meaning Clover isn't finished at Vol4 yet. Hmmm.. And I still want to know what Legal Drug is. I haven't found much sites about that, and that sucks major ass.

I need someone to translate CLAMP's site for me.. TT^TT

Anyway, preview of my Suikoden 2 fic can be found here. Go read.

Whooo...
listening to: Haibane Renmei - Blue Flow
wishes for: NARUTOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO..!!!!!!

Gaara-sama ish teh luff. So is Sasuke and Orochimaru and Naruto and Haku and Neji. All luffleees. <3 Mine!!!!!!!!!!! >3 Shikimaru was just hilarious. x3 I have to download Naruto.. Must know what happened between Gaara and Naruto.. Mm.

Last week was just horribly stressing. I luff the Naruto Marathon though.. I am bankrupt. I bought a family sized pizza last friday and I didn't even get to eat a single slice out of it. Bah. Now i want potato chips. And chocolate and candy. And more pizza. Damnit.

We have karekare for lunch today!! WHEEE!

And yesterday was Seme-sama's birthdayy!!! Oooh..!! Seme-sama luff!!!

I'll be finishing almost everything i need to finish today and tomorrow. I shall not be online in a few days 'cause i *reallyreallyreally* need to finish schoolwork.

I haven't blogged something really good in a long while, so here's some quizzes for you.


Which Historical Lunatic Are You?
From the fecund loins of Rum and Monkey.


Which Famous Homosexual Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

omifrickingosh. wtf?! o__O


Which Latter-Day Glendinningite are you?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

No, don't ask me why i took this quiz. just don't. Oh, look! A cloud!


Which Horrible Affliction are you?
A Rum and Monkey disease.

ph34r.

untitled
listening to: Gackt - Hoshi no Suna
wishes for: no more.. no more.. i wanna die... *sob*

i wanna die.

stressed out maybe. due to schoolwork.

nah. not just that. life, in general, hates me.

"..it was that point in my life that i realized that the world had no need for me." -haku <3

and so my crazy dream continues...

bah. i have lost the will to do anything anymore. -_________- someone kill me. please. poison, guns, blades, i don't care how. just kill me.